Trying to stay Sane

A hug is appreciated thank you @Emelia8 🙏

Our dear Community Guide @Anastasia

We are all sitting with you tonight in this, just as you have done for so many of us here.

Of course, if you need more immediate assistance do not hesitate to reach out to a crisis service if that if what you need to keep yourself safe tonight (Lifeline 13 11 14; Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467; 000 for an emergency)

Take good care of yourself, I hope you are able to get some rest tonight

Kind regards

Peregrinefalcon

@Anastasia 🤗💞 I wish I knew how to help, I really do. You deserve so much better than the cards you were dealt.

Thank you @Peregrinefalcon

I'm greatful for you. I'm safe x

Don't think it gets any harder but can't go anywhere so all good you're stuck with me, thank you 🙏

Good night @Emelia8 I hope you sleep well my precious friend.

💜💖💜

@Anastasia I also wish I could do or say something to help. But you are in my thoughts.

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@Determined wrote:

@Anastasia I also wish I could do or say something to help. But you are in my thoughts.

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Thank you @Determined

I'm grateful you're here.

Gosh I feel for both of us. For our loved ones. Just for what is, and what should be. Do you question everything? I do?

I think about what I could have done to alleviate what is ..

Probably not helpful but I do.

When I spoke to sane today I felt like the crazy woman. The ball in the squash court bouncing from one wall to the next...

Do you grieve what life you think you were going to have?

I'm sorry we don't...sorry for all of us really is, out loved one oh it's just so sad really

You are a good hubny @Determined

Nothing worse than feeling lonely surround by people 🥺 I often feel that way.

But please know that even though from distance you have friends here who care. And I'm sure you are doing a great job.

You care, that counts more than anything else.

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@Determined wrote:

Nothing worse than feeling lonely surround by people 🥺 I often feel that way.

But please know that even though from distance you have friends here who care. And I'm sure you are doing a great job.

You care, that counts more than anything else.

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Yes @Determined that emptiness...the darkness, the guilt,the lonliness that you just can't share your inner thoughts because you'll be judged...

The friendships that you don't have, the self loathing oh I hear you. I wish I don't hear you. It's heart breaking to know I'm not alone. I am so sorry @Determined

I am so sorry you feel this too 😔

@Anastasia I often think of what could have been.

Could things have been better with better leadership from me?

Was it selfish wanting children?

(Between my genetic issues and darlings mental health issues, what were we thinking).

I grieve the fact that I no longer have the capacity to work full time. Burned out, lack of self care. Trying to support darling, not seeking help or support while trying to maintain a toxic job.

Poor choices on my part.

Lack of of support and understanding on darlings part. (Well she is unwell, but a hug and how was your day would have done wonders after work).

So yeah, understanding grieving about what could have been. Regreats about what I could have done differently .