Covid - lockdown - relax - lockdown ???

Hi All,

I need some advise please.

I understand what a lockdowns is and what measures I can take to keep others and myself as safe as possible.

I don't understand what the so called 'new normal' is actually supposed to mean? I've learnt about the words eradicating, eliminating or suppressing Covid. But what does it actually mean for life, for our new normal?

New Zealander says it eliminated the virus. Great, but the borders will open eventually. Does that mean every visitor has to go into quarantine until we have a vaccine or develop (awful expression) herd immunity?

Australia is controlling hotspots, places go back into lockdown, safety rules are being put in place, borders shut. Will we be able to plan anything in the near future?

Uncertainty, change, isolation have a major impact on my mental health. I'm tired dealing with my past. I'm tired after the bushfire season. I'm tired after the first lockdown. I'm tired of trying. I feel helpless (and often hopeless) and that spirals me out of control. I've been helpless over many years with childhood sexual abuse, family violence, war. I didn't understand what it meant back then and I don't understand covid now. And it scares me, it scares me so much.

There's no crystal ball I would really love that options. I'd really appreciate if you can share articles, information with me that explain what strategies a country could use to deal with covid in the future. It doesn't have to be Australia specific, just general information.

I'd love to go back into my bubble, but I'll die there. Over the past couple of months I realised that I won't have a reason to live if I don't live. I always missed that part in my suicide prevention plan. And now that I try to live and reconnect with people it seems I won't be able to do any of this, even just going to my local support group, for a long time. And I have no idea how to deal with that. I can't deal with the stop and go, I've struggled with that long before covid. I need routines and I get unwell when routines change, and now they can change on a day to day basis.