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Changing meds

WIPSenior Contributor15 July 2020, 11:14 am AEST

Changing meds

Hi. I battled MDD & acute anxiety nearly all of my adult life. I've been on numerous different SSRIs, SRNIs, antipsychotics, tried rTMS & ECT. Am addicted to a benzo for my anxiety.

I am in the process of swapping out from a SRNI to a MAOI and the wash out period is hell. I really don't think I'm going to make it. This is the darkest place I have ever been.
I have no family support, honestly no friends, not able to work & are completely isolated.

i don't feel my medical team actually care much anymore, they are overwhelmed by new clients because of covid.

i hardly sleep, but the last thing in my mind before I do, is how much I want to die. It's the first thought of the day when I wake up.

what if this new medication doesn't work either??

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Eve7Senior Contributor21 Jan 2021, 9:45 pm AEDT

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I just want to say I care about you @WIP and I am a real person even if I’m not by your side I’m still real and always here for you.

lPlease stay safe.

💖💚💖

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 1:57 pm AEDT

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Here to remind you that I care very much for you @WIP

Please remeber that "you are enough"

sitting with you holding your hand and if you fel up to it we can put on our wings and go for a fly 🙂

@Emelia8

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:16 pm AEDT

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Thank you for the hug - oh how I long for a non virtual hug , not that im grateful for your hug!!

I don't believe I am enough, I haven't ever been enough - never will.

I long to fly away, to disappear, to never to return. The days are too excruciating by myself. Loneliness is a killer. I'm so very deeply sad. It hurts, it hurts so much that I can't function - what's the point??

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Eve7Senior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:16 pm AEDT

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Sitting beside you @WIP

💖🤗🤗💖

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:27 pm AEDT

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:42 pm AEDT

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There's no need to apologise hunny. I understand, yes I see it with my son (he's there at the moment) and it's an awful place to be for you/him. I wish I could take it all away for you both. I am here for you and you are a genuine friend of mine.

Please know that I have no expectations for you to reply or answer ever. Love you L,

Please stay safe ❤️ @WIP

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:50 pm AEDT

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AnastasiaSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 2:53 pm AEDT

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I understand. I hear you. It would make a massive difference to our lives @WIP without you. You said no one would notice. Please believe me from the depth of my soul all of us here would notice and would have a heavy heart if you weren't here. I am concerned for you sweet L. Are you safe?

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WIPSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 3:17 pm AEDT

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BowSenior Contributor22 Jan 2021, 3:22 pm AEDT

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Sitting with you @WIP 💕

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