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I am struggling at the moment

I am struggling at the moment

I don't know why I am really writing this. There seems to be part of me which says that I need to pull my head in and do this alone and another part who so desperately wants to reach out for help. I am really struggling. I'm not coping at all. For much of the day I've thought about all the reasons to die and there are hundreds. There is also one reason to live that keeps me here. I can't let down my oldest son and cut out his trip of a lifetime. He would have to come home and pick up all the pieces for everyone. I keep telling myself I have to hold on until he comes back and then I can let go but this keeps me waiting to die not choosing to live. I have a cold sore that now goes from the corner of my eye the length of my nose and it's slowly creeping across my face from stress. It started on Wednesday and each morning I wake to find more of my face engulfed by it. I am so tired. I am so sorry to write this and I know I'm so lucky to have friends on here that care. I don't want anyone to have to deal with this as it is so depressing so I started this thread as a way of saying that I'm not well when writing here and please don't feel obliged to read or respond.

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do i just click reply?

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Yes

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What's brought u here

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Are u alright

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HI @darrenhayes @sophrose

I was out with family and could only respond briefly before. I can see that @@sophrose has withdrawn membership, but I hope you are still around the forums, reading at least ....

When you put the "@" symbol ahead of someone's forum name, it "tags" them. It sends an email to their Inbox telling them they have mail on the forums. If you tag several people, a conversation may happen on the thread if they all check on the thread at about the same time, or like emails, they may come back on at a later stage and leave a message on the thread.

Otherwise you are free to come and go from any of the threads, saying hi, introducing yourself, chatting, or tap the "like" button if you want to agree with or at least acknowledge something someone else has written.

If you make a start with that, ask any other questions you like as you go along.

Hope that helps.

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Good morning @Former-Member,
I'm sorry you were triggered yesterday, & felt let down.
Big sun shiny beams of light to you today.
Yesterday is no longer here.
Mwaah 😘🌟🌅🌈🌌

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Hi @Former-Member

I read that you are really battling at the moment but I can't find that message about your feeling as if your therapist owns you and you are in a really bad place but I can't find it again

You are an important part of the Forum Family so we really care a whole lot - it always means a lot to me when people write messages for me when I am having a bad patch

Thinking of you heaps - and hoping you are better today than you were yesterday - but take the time to need to get out of your bad patch - thanks for letting us know about this

Dec - I love playing with all these colour and emojis or whatever they are - I mean well - I hope they help

❤💖🎊💕

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@Former-Member

I hope you are alright!

I just logged on.

I am not sure what psychologist said or did but they dont OWN you. We share from a vulnerable place, and that sometimes gives them the idea they can see our souls, but they are privileged for the glimpses we give them. It is actually generosity of spirit that enables sharing.

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Hi @Former-Member, been looking for you, you OK?

Hi @Appleblossom,

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I'm still here. Thank you all. I didn't completely destruct, just enough to switch off for a while. I don't feel much like talking about things. Thanks again for your support.
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