I am struggling at the moment

So sorry for the last rant @Faith-and-Hope, @utopia and anyone who read it. I could do with some good news stories if anyone has any, even the "I had a shower today" ones. I'm feeling self absorbed and trying to break out of it but not able to support others suffering just yet either. Feel free to let me know how your day has been. 💜😊

I washed the tea-towels .... ✅ ...... . 😊💜 ..... right before we ran out ....

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That's awesome and made me smile @Faith-and-Hope. I think I need to do that with the washing undies and bras about now 😝😜

Are you busy right now @Faith-and-Hope? Could do with a ☕️ and chat. Trying to feel better so I can get in the shower and wash my hair. 12 days now since I last washed it 😱😠. It actually doesn't look that bad but I can feel it 😬

Has your life settled at all? How was dinner last night?

Dinner was okay .... love seeing my little tribe all together, which doesn't happen so much any more .... happy in that it was just my five kids, hub and me .... but that was because DIL was a no-show and FSIL had a sport game he was involved with .... disgruntled cos WH was away for the actual birthdate .... and FSIL still doesn't "get it" ..... a lot of people won't until we get to diagnosis and therapy stage .... :face_with_rolling_eyes:

Lots of paddling to go here .... I'll let you know when my arms are tired and sore too .... but you tend to pick it up anyway .... 😏💜

Got WH to our new favourite cafe anyway ..... ✅ .... although he nearly had a coronary when the proprietor recommended Mac-cheese for dinner ..... 😆 ..... so far off the trail of The Regimen he was hyperventilating on the inside I think ....

Hi @utopia, I see you around too. I'm really glad CBT is still exciting you even if not as much as last week. How has your day been?

I feel a bit like I'm in the naughty corner hiding over here in this thread but right now it kind of feels safe.

I do that sometimes too @Former-Member ..... 😏💜

Oh I could imagine @Faith-and-Hope about the freaking out at the food. My ex husband was quite disciplined at what he ate too so I can only imagine the extreme end of that. It sounds like one of those rare chances just to have your crew, I'm in the same place now as well with the additions. It would have been nice. Are you finding it difficult to just enjoy things at the moment?

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I was feeling a bit heart-sore earlier in the week, but it washes over me if I just keep moving forward .... would probably have had a pyjama day on Monday if WH was away .... so that's the sort of time I end up in my car .... running "errands" .... or land myself in one of those massage places at the shopping centres for a foot massage. It's a way of receiving TLC that I don't have to generate for myself, if that makes sense .... ? 🌿💚

I have to be really careful not to tie my emotions to the circumstances that come and go with the mood swings in others, or I end up riding their waves along with my own .... and there are still a lot of others in my environment. 😔

We do have an in-house policy that it's okay to retreat socially to that "pyjama-day" reclusiveness though .... and run raids on life to achieve the basics .... probably because I raised them in that pattern, relying on it myself to get through tough times. 💕

We hug a lot too. There's a lot that doesn't need to be said amongst the empathetic make-up that the kids and I all have ..... surprised the psych I'm seeing I think .... which indicates he's not used to seeing that .... 🌷

Interesting ....

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You touched on something earlier?? (can't remember when) @Faith-and-Hope about absorbing others moods. It's been stuck in my brain ever since. I know I totally fall to pieces on the smallest things or change in moods but angry from someone has me looking to crawl under a rock. I have been thinking about starting a thread to see what others do to combat taking on others moods. What to you do to shield you from it? I think this is one of the main things along with fear of being judged by others that stops me from re entering society.