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I don't know why I am really writing this. There seems to be part of me which says that I need to pull my head in and do this alone and another part who so desperately wants to reach out for help. I am really struggling. I'm not coping at all. For much of the day I've thought about all the reasons to die and there are hundreds. There is also one reason to live that keeps me here. I can't let down my oldest son and cut out his trip of a lifetime. He would have to come home and pick up all the pieces for everyone. I keep telling myself I have to hold on until he comes back and then I can let go but this keeps me waiting to die not choosing to live. I have a cold sore that now goes from the corner of my eye the length of my nose and it's slowly creeping across my face from stress. It started on Wednesday and each morning I wake to find more of my face engulfed by it. I am so tired. I am so sorry to write this and I know I'm so lucky to have friends on here that care. I don't want anyone to have to deal with this as it is so depressing so I started this thread as a way of saying that I'm not well when writing here and please don't feel obliged to read or respond.
Did wonder.. just had round 2 with 92 yo father, ordered to put a quilt away, told off for buying a lettuce as apparently he had one plus sister wants fridge empty for all her deluxe food.. plus why didn't you go and see mum now plus where have u been 'all afternoon ' .. ffs ... lol
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Unknown userMember
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Hang in there @TAB. Your doing it for the right reasons. You do know they tend to get grumpier as they get older (it's not a rule but more of a guide). Mines heading that way and yours has 17 years on mine.
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TABSenior Contributor
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Yeah I know.. just not used to being treated like not a person sure sister wont get same treatment cant care anyway just having a moan
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Unknown userMember
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Yeah it's good to moan and get it out here rather than let it build up. Thinking @TAB maybe you'll have to set yourself a goal that will help you get through. I kind of have. A few hours back I was going under quickly but I just put it down to surviving the next 36 hours without ending up in hospital. It's working for me now but I have a bit to get through yet. But for me it's that simple, don't run away and don't go to hospital, anything else will be a win.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
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I can imagine how he is @TAB .. seen that sort of thing enough can you joke with him about being grumpy ole men .. but get him to laugh at himself with it .. ya know what I mean?
Hi @Former-Member Heat wave has me wilted .. will cook a bit shower and go out .. and Parteeeee...might start wearing a tiara .. in church der ..
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Unknown userMember
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Only problem is @Appleblossom its too hot to wear a tiara 😂 I really hope you enjoy your night out singing. Release all that pent up stuff you've had to deal with.
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TABSenior Contributor
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Mm doubt it need an icebreaker and I ain't on mood lol but thanks😀
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