New check in post

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@Lee71 wrote:

@NatureLover yes ave just got back from that appointment.

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Well done for going when you were anxious about it! How did it go with the 2 people at once? (No need to answer if you prefer not)

I slept badly again...it's going to take a while to get back my natural rhythm I think. But I don't like saying that when you are sleeping so much worse. @Lee71

@NatureLover the appointment wasn't too bad at all.

You should mention it, you're sleeping habits are just as important.

@NatureLover I feel like I'm partly to blame, for the stress and worry I cause you.

And that leads me to the conclusion that everyone is better off without me.

I'm glad your appoointment went OK @Lee71

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@Lee71 wrote:

@NatureLover I feel like I'm partly to blame, for the stress and worry I cause you.

And that leads me to the conclusion that everyone is better off without me.

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Lee, I can handle any worry I have about you. I choose to be here offering support. I would definitely NOT be better off without you. That's the depression lying to you.

And erhaps it's the depression @NatureLover

Or maybe it's just the plain truth .

This song quote I just listened to ,,,says it all

" sometimes, you know sometimes , sometimes it is so, Its so dark you see, sometimes I feel like, like there is no, there's just no end to it, its so dark and it's so deep and it's, so wide, it's gonna just, just swallow me it's just, sometimes it's just true. Im gonna try, and I feel like ,feel like giving in you see, I feel like just, I dont know..."

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@Lee71 wrote:

And erhaps it's the depression @NatureLover

Or maybe it's just the plain truth .

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I know you feel like giving in, and that the SI is strong. The song lyric you quoted says there's no end to it...but there is an end to it. I am proof of that, and you are too - you came out of it before.

It's sadly a common thing to hear suicidal people say that "people would be better off without me". But no-one other than suicidal people seem to say this...which leads me to think it's the depression talking.

@Lee71

@NatureLover I honestly don't know what to say.

Do you maybe feel worse after your appointment this morning? Therapy can be hard...

@Lee71

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@NatureLover wrote:

Do you maybe feel worse after your appointment this morning? Therapy can be hard...

@Lee71

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Yes, feel helpless . And be easier for everyone if I wasn't here

Hi @Lee71 I'm feeling quite concerned about you after seeing a few of your recent posts. I understand you manage these feelings of not wanting to be here a lot, but it seems like they may be feeling particularly strong today. I would like to follow up and send you an email to touch base 🌼