Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in

I just need to vent and get this all out... I am not looking for a magic fix... I just need to get it out

Why oh why is it so hard to bounce back

as many know... just over a week ago I resigned from a job I had had most of my life.... I couldn't handle the bullying, the victimization and the way I was being treated,so on advice from a union representative I sent in my resignation... two days later I received a letter to say despite me resigning they were terminating me anyway... they also reported me to the registration board and placed a black mark against my name should I try and get another role like the one I had...this has torn me apart psychologically.... all I seem to do is cry... have almost constant panic attacks... I try to go for a walk to ground myself but have to turn round and come home as I am crying.... every time the phone rings I panic.... an email alert comes in I panic... a message... panic....

I have been offered a temporary contract job bu one of the good people I worked with...but just filling out the paperwork is too overwhelming....

all I want to do is curl up under the covers and hide from the world....

my GP upped my antidepressants... that doesn't seem to be helping.... I have a phsycholgist telehealth session tomorrow... I hope that will help a bit... but I don't hold high hopes