BastSenior Contributor
Being you is OK!
Hi
Regardless of the dreadful experiences, emotions, stigma and experiences that occur perhaps there is always a little tiny candle light burning fragrantly away. I believe so totally that I am a person first and not just a diagnosis. If I am abnormal that is disconcerting however I cannot influence the pre-conceived perspectives of others. In essence it is very hard (and I know this truly) to comprehend it is not my problem. Let's hold onto the concept that sanity doesn't actually exist, everyone has personality traits, issues and can be wacko! They just either get away with it more or camoflage better for self interest. To have connections via this post is incredibly helpful, I am currently not an isolate dealing with my own MH labels. I am a little braver and just a tad more resilient, I still live in fear that I may display emotions inappropriately though! Oh the horror of losing it and crying and being judged. Today a difficult work situation became very 'tricky' I think the total was 3 tears (I hope) and then back to being able to relatively function. Horribly I am monitored by amateurs regarding my mental state. I can now reflect and hold onto my little fragrant candle, I got through. Amongst the thinking was the horrible and resounding self deprecation that I caused this by my meds surrender and preference for feelings and identity. Realistically it is probably the right decision - I get to be me - tiny candle or not.
Lotsa luv
Bast
