Re: & we have lift off

Hi NikNik and all, my first post for awhile and I'm not sure if this is the right place or if I should start a new thread.<BR /><BR />I have clinical depression, PTSD, acute anxiety ( heaps of panic attacks) and am also an alcoholic/addiction issues.<BR /><BR />I'm thankful that I have been stabilised on the correct dosage of medication and have read, practiced and finally get MINDFULNESS. Lately this has been my saving grace.<BR /><BR />I have a partner who has depression, PTSD from childhood events, and anger management issues. He accepts that he is depressed but refuses to take medications because of the sexual side effects. <BR /><BR />For many months, after I came out of a 28 days rehab , apart from trying to keep myself together I am also acutely aware of my hubby's fragility. We are both under a lot of pressure from life basically - home to be repossessed, flat broke etc. Although I am doing my best to face these issues head on, my husband has decided to ignore them. So, I'm on my own.<BR /><BR />Yesterday he was assessed by a psych and diagnosed with melancholic depression - a complex mixture of numerous forms. Flat, delayed speech, slow thought processes, memory loss, angry outbursts for no reason. I get scared and I just want him to start his antidepressants.<BR /><BR />I feel guilty for taking care of myself first - sometimes I just get in the car and park at the local shopping centre for time out. Because I have been sober for 6 months I'm at the point where I think ONE little thing could trigger a relapse resulting, as we all know, major depression and risk of harm to myself and others.<BR /><BR />I suppose what I'm asking is - after all that - is should I be seeking advice in the carers forum? I'm kind of a dual diagnosis here. Yes, I am a psych nurse and so is my husband - maybe at times like this too much knowledge is a bad thing. See, now I'm dribbling on and confusing myself.