Not coping

@outlander - I can't go anywhere due to being unwell, I've been doing what the helplines have told me to do.
Sometimes things just get too much for me and my alters.
Now having trouble sleeping which is scaring me.

@Fluttershy1 I hope you managed some sleep last night, and that today is a little better for you.

There are other member who do diamond painting. If you would like to share a pic with us when it’s finished. Craft Corner is where some of us share what we do. You might like to have a look.

@Maggie - I slept a lot better, I feel abit better but I've woken up and my alters are back at each other....

@Maggie @outlander @Snowie @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @eth @Shaz51 @Former-Member -

Today has been a extremely hard day, I know I've hardly been in today due to a bad mental health day, I woke up not feeling mentally & emotionally great so I stayed in bed, I eventually got up before 9am reached out to a few services before I got up and dressed for my online course that I only attended for a hour because my mind wasn't with it. I felt bad for not attending and really selfish...

Ive been crying most of the day because i feel selfish and helpless and like I'm a failure *Im safe*

Spoke to my support worker this afternoon due to me seeing her tomorrow and I needed to check in with her because I needed my sense of safety at that stage.
I haven't really left my room today. I'm now all curled up with my weighted blanket crying and dissociating and switching alters.

Family have not been understanding about my mental health and what I need from them. I feel like I can't do anything right for them. I just can't help that my mental health came crashing down straight when I first woke up.

im completely safe with my weighted blanket.
I'm going to hide with my safe alters.

Take care all

@Fluttershy1 That’s a tough day.

I have read about the weighted blanket, and it’s benefits, I hope it’s a comfort for you tonight,

I think the fact that you gave your online course a go, is worth giving yourself some credit . You’re not a failure, selfish or helpless, you are unwell.

Is there something you might be interested in watching on tv tonight that might help.

Well done for reaching out to services today also, another positive.

Take care. 💙💙💙

@Maggie - I'm going to have a early night. I have social worker tomorrow. Got GP appointment for blood test results *scary*

must go hide now.

sending you tender hugs @Fluttershy1

sitting with you xx

@Shaz51 - sitting here crying, I don't know how to feel at the moment. I've got tears running down my face. My alters are constantly switching.
ima be here for a while.

@Maggie @outlander @Snowie @NatureLover @Faith-and-Hope @Dizzyizzy @eth @Shaz51 @Moderator - These last few days have been really hard, I isolated myself from the whole world because I was scared that someone was going to say something that was going to hurt me and make me more vulnerable than I am. I've been crying for days on end and trying to get myself back to a more stable place than I was before.
I have been constantly switching alters to protect myself and to try and regroup myself so I didn't get more worse than I am. I've been trying to do self care but that hasn't really helped either.
im starting to get myself more stable then I have been the past few days.. I've just got to help myself and do more self care when I'm like this.
I've been in back to back panic attacks some days as well so it's been exhausting, I'm going to be in and out of forums the next few days but I'll try to check in when I can.

Things are just hard and not the best at the moment but I will be able to get through this.
I'm now going to hide with my safe alters

Take care all

@Fluttershy1 I have missed seeing you around the last few days, and wondered how you were doing.

I’m sorry things are so tough for you, but managing some self care, when you can is really good.

Thankyou for letting us know you are with your safe alter. 💞💞