EM26Contributor
A rough few days
I have had a bad few days,the weekend caused me some anxiety with unexpected extended outings resulting in self harm. Work was then very flat for me, usually it is my safe and protective place,again more SH. After a visit to my gp I was feeling a bit better. Then yesterday I had day surgery, which had been planned for sometime over the next 4 weeks, but a cancellation brought it forward very quickly. I dont think my mind was really ready for it so quickly and today i have been lethargic, sleepy and down, maybe partly from all the drugs but also just basic sadness. I feel lonely even when I have family about, I feel anxious at the thought of my surgery results and having to go back to work after a few days away, I feel tired of all the dramas going on around me that I have no control over, I feel sad, just always sad, tears come easily and often in the quiet of my house while everyone sleeps. I am waiting on a psychologist appointment and my meds to start taking affect,maybe then things will start improving and I the clouds will disappear.
