cerseigirlContributor
I finally feel stable!
I have literally had the worst 8 months of my life just before. I had 17 admissions (one was 3 months long), multiple different diagnoses, constant medication changes, and it took me becoming manic with psychotic delusions for the doctors to confirm my diagnosis as biplar and start me on a different combination of medications. I feel fantastic! I feel in control of my body, able to cope with life, and I think about all the things I did when I was unwell and I feel like the memories were just a different person!
I've been in hospital for over a month now and I'm hopefully leaving at the end of this week if all goes well. I'm really excited! This is probably one of the first hopsital discharges that either haven't been against medical advice or where the doctor has discharged me expecting me to come straight back.
My only concern is that I'll be returning to my normal psychiatrist as an outpatient who wasn't the one treating me in hospital, and he thinks I have depression and not bipolar. I want to work with him to reduce my dose of one of my medications, but I'm just anxious he'll think that the medications I'm on are unnecessary and stop them all. I just want small changes made to my medication, as I'd rather take what I'm taking now for the rest of my life and be stable rather than go back to what I was like before! I guess I'll have to wait and see, fingers crossed everything stays the way it is!
