Morning has broken

He's a lucky man @Shaz51 to have you.

I'm ok on couch too, pooped. Bf bought me pizza as a treat cause not long home from work. Think I'll be asleep soon 🤣

ha ha me too @Anastasia

going to try and put some washing on and do the dishes before bed

@WIPGlad you got a giggle. Its fine. Its funny and its not. I am serious. I am so driven I live like a farmer, or I am flat on my back. Digging and dividing and watering. I keep saying I have to get garden ready for when summer hits, but why do i do it to myself. I think maybe if I stop then that will be a problem ... so ... who knows. The garden is looking fabulous though, and then I see something and then I get an idea ... atm I am juggling a lot of plants ... that will happier in new place ... cos of sun or shade or woteva ...etc etc ... probably a bit manic. Its my garden and I can if I want to ... Can if I want to ... ??? What else will I do with my time. For a while, 10years ago, I did a bit of the 'stare at walls' and curl up in foetal position.

@Eve7Motherhood guilt is always there. We can never make it perfect. You were only AOL for months. My parents were AWOL for years, and all the kids had different experiences"in care" which were stressful. They both did come back for us and they both did their best. That was obvious to me as a little girl. Mental Illness and trauma are tragic. It is the way it is. My circs are different. My son says I am lucky I have never been hospitalised, whereas I know I should have been and cant quite figure why I was not. SO I was there all the time, but unwell and the kids did see mum wandering around in quite a state for about 12 years. I hoped for good enough, but told recently in no uncertain terms. Not good enough. I approached authorities, eg family therapists etc. They said no need. Assessed kids. Good Enough. Anyway the family has a mixed bag of strengths and struggles and so I try and look on the bright side.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X_-q9xeOgG4

I think we all try our best as parents @Appleblossom and some days we do better than others.

I’m lucky my kids have done well graduating uni and good jobs but I see the pain in their eyes sometimes.

Take care and thanks for chatting. I appreciate your kindness and humour.

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@Eve7

Your kindness shines thru. I am sure your children know and feel it.

Gently Bently

Do you want to join us for a cuppa @Appleblossom over on the not coping thread?

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@Eve7 I just want to say how special you are...you are a beautiful person. I really hope things improve for you very soon, and you can enjoy life. Sending much

Hi @Eve7

Congratulations!! 🎉🎉 Your final inpatient ECT treatment.

Been thinking of you and hoping today went well for you.

Afternoon @Appleblossom

Thanks for the YouTube video - a good little reminder....particularly when I've been doing a lot of the 'staring at walls' and curled up in foetal position, you speak of.

Things have to improve.....

Hope you have a good weekend!

Yes @WIP all done and dusted.

Thank you so much for your support. I really appreciate your kindness.

@Appleblossom Thanks for posting that Monty Python clip...good song for my pity party.

@NatureLover Thank you for your lovely words.

@Shaz51 I hope your weekend has started well.

@Anastasia is everything ok?

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