Morning has broken

It's 28 here @Snowie but I fly south tomorrow for a week so that might change very soon. I'm glad you were able to see your psych this morning and I hope tomorrow goes well for you. Maybe the top up ECT is just what you need right now.

That would be nice @Eve7 It even snowed here!!

I hope your time away goes well hon. Will you be able to enjoy it?

Ect, my brain is telling me why bother but I know I have to keep having it.

I will enjoy parts of my time away but I am very anxious about it all @Snowie

I really hope the ECT helps.

I hope the good parts outweigh the anxious one's @Eve7

It's always hard when our time away makes things feel harder for us. Would rather just stay at home.

You’ve had snow today @Snowie !!! Amazing, I don’t know what to pack but I think I’ll just take one warm jacket to be safe.

I’ve just returned home after visiting a friend who lost her mum yesterday. We chatted for ages about our parents and the way we deal with the end of life.

Sometimes when people pass I think it’s not too bad to face the end of life and my thoughts start to run away with all sorts of ideas. I don’t know if I’m ok or not now but saying more on here might not be wise.

I need to eat and finish packing as I’m going away tomorrow for a week.

I think it's normal to run with those thoughts/ideas @Eve7 especially if we deal with SI ourselves.

I hope you get your packing done hon and get something to eat.

Maybe @Snowie but I need to be careful.

I understand @Eve7

One of the reasons why we are here for you.

You can always email a mod if you feel like you can't say it on here.

@Eve7 death certainly has a way of rattling us to the core. I think it's natural to end up with pretty hectic thoughts, and in fact I believe contemplating our own death can be healthy (fantastic book on this concept is Staring at the Sun by Irvin Yalom).

Are you feeling unsafe at all hun, or more just uneasy? Feel free to email if you're feeling unsure.