Anxiety mini rant

Hi,

So I'm really struggling. I've been through hell this year, much more than just covid. But a massive betrayal from my psychiatrist that led to false claims and police investigations. And in every investigation I have been proven innocent, as I knew I should be. But it's been the most traumatic thing I've ever experienced and I think I've got all these new PTSD symptoms now as well. My anxiety is pretty high and I'm scared of psychiatrists now, and that's a shame since I have to call one tomorrow to try see if they'll take me on as a patient. So my anxiety has been worse today and I have been mentally counting down the hours till tomorrow to the phone call. I'm supposed to be giving myself a mental break / holiday from this stuff since it's been getting to me too much...but apparently I'm not good at letting go and being in the present moment.

Anyway. Mini rant over. Just feeling super alone and super caught up in my anxiety.