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Struggling, possible trigger warning

Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 12:41 pm AEST

Struggling, possible trigger warning

*Possible trigger warning.*

Hi.

I'm just struggling a lot, with bad intrusive thoughts. And yes I'm safe, I just have suicidal thoughts often. I'm not going to act on them to myself or anyone. (Mods I hope it's ok to post this, hence me putting the trigger warning).

I can't go to the triage because they refuse to let me come in and just help me, even over the phone, I don't know why, and yes I have a referral for there from my Psychiatrist. I told him all of this too.

I don't know what to do. I was thinking of changing GPs at some point, but I have to when I turn 21 (I'm 20) because she only sees patients under 21. I have a few in mind who specialise in mental health, or so it says on their profiles anyway. She's nice but she doesn't do anything for me - doesn't prescribe me meds even though my Psychiatrist tells her to do (he prescribes my meds for me - sends them in the mail or faxes them to my local Pharmacist, its the only way I'll get them. And to be honest I feel more comfortable with him doing that), and she just tells me to speak to my Psychiatrist, so I'm wasting my time.

As some of you know, I had a bad experience with a rude MH Nurse that i'll be complaining about, and telling my Psychiatrist about.

I don't have any other professional help, just a weekly phone call from someone at Wellways while I'm on the waitlist. Seeing a social worker next week, I hope that goes ok.

I don't know what to do. No one wants to help me apart from my Psychiatrist and I feel like a burden to him anyway. He's agreed to see me every 2-3 weeks.

If you've read this post let alone read this far, or liked it even, thank you. I hope I didn't trigger anyone, I'm just really lost.

I just feel like this everyday, and it's so hard to escape it. Even when I go for my daily walks, I still feel this way.

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 4:35 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Hey there @Former-Member I am really sorry that you've been through this experience, it's not okay and I am glad to hear your Psychiatrist is a really solid ally. I would recommend seeking out appropriate feedback mechanisms such as MHCC. They can even support you through the process the convo is okay for now, but just want to be mindful of not discouraging other forum users from seeking help or supports.

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 4:40 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Thanks for letting us know you are safe @Former-Member we are very glad you're safe and yes that is super hard, you're very strong. It's okay to feel hurt. We're here to listen.

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 4:41 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Understandable @Former-Member and I wasn't trying to make others hesitant to seek help so my apologies. I was just sharing my experience with my local triage - how they refuse to help me, I don't know why.

Do you know if my Psychiatrist can investigate that (ask why they won't help me, etc)? There was this one guy with an accent who was the rudest there, he shouldn't be working in that field, wow. He was so arrogant.

My apologies though, I get where you're coming from. Just wanted to mention that I tried that but they can't help otherwise I'd be there not on here.

I'll make a complaint about the MH Nurse (I have that in my Need advice please (info below). thread) to the MHCC etc.

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 4:42 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Thank you, that means a lot to me and I do appreciate the kind words. I wasn't trying to make anyone not seek help, just sharing my unfortunate experience with the triage, otherwise I'd be there rather than here, as I mentioned in my below comment. So my apologies @Former-Member

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor07 May 2020, 7:37 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Exercise has helped me too.

I confess to talking to the animals, the moon and ythe stars when I am on walks, and yes to myself. Funnily enough as pressure on me as been released and isolation reduced I dont feel that inclination.

Aaaaah LIfe!

@Fog @Blooms

Welcome, even if we are talking about difficult issues.

SOmewhere or other I heard the truth will set you free, I dont know how much truth is in that, but coering up and always feeling we have to pretend we are better than we are can cause all sorts of problems even health issues.

@Former-Member Re heavy thoughts, I like this pic:

A metaphor

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 7:38 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

Thanks @Appleblossom , your pic hasn't come up yet but I'll let you know when it does

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Unknown userMember07 May 2020, 8:19 pm AEST

Re: Struggling, possible trigger warning

@Appleblossom just saw your quote, thanks

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