Im truely grateful for my children daughter (turning 23 tomorrow) son (turned 21 end of march)
After my back surgery (just b4 I turned 16) doctors told me I might find it hard to conceive or go a full term pregnancy.
I fell pregnate while on the pill 3 yrs later. Then again 2 yrs later. Both were very relaxed pregnancy's & both extremely quick & easy natural labours. (45min & 30min) no epidural..& little babies. my mum was not happy, I was a difficult & very painful big baby & she hoped for some pay back lol (Sorry mum)
Being a single mum it wasn't always easy. I've many health issues, over come addictions, have an extremely dysfunctional family, chosen the wrong pathway a few times, never claimed or received child support (no point when dad is in & out of jail so often, but we have a really good friendship & he does support when I ask or he sees me struggle (when he is around) but nothing continusly but that's a whole other story)
Anyway I haven't always done the right thing with my own life but I would & have sacrificed a lot for my babies.
& yes they have seen me struggle & at times witnessed my wrong choices but they have always known that I will do everything in my power to help them reach their potential.
When they need me I'm there. I help them fight their battles & wipe their tears no matter how old they get.
Having them saved me from myself. I can be pretty self destructive at times. I've gained strength & learned so much more about life being a mum.
We've struggled financially, sometimes emotionally but they have both grown to be intelligent, compassionate, beautiful independent young adults with strong morals who also inspire me .
Everything about them today reminds me that even though I've taken a wrong turn here & there or made a few wrong choices, & with my recent ordeal with trying to learn how to deal & express my raw emotions.... I did not fail as a mum.
They truely remind me that they are the most brilliant accomplishment of my life. I am greatful for them.