JamrockCasual Contributor
Support and Advice
Hi Everyone,
Its fantastic that there are forums available like this and i am glad i found this. I wanted to give a bit of background of what i am going through and find people who have been through it and come out the other end stronger.
On January 7 this year, i had my first panic attack. The week after i spent stressing about having another one, and then it happened (which i now know is common). The day of the second panic attack i could not bring myself down. I went to my doctor and asked for something that could calm me down however he put me on heavier medication. I am not against these meds but i thought it was a bit too soon to put me on them before i had a chance to tackle it in the way i knew how.
I went on the meds and lasted 2.5 weeks. I have never experienced anything like that before. I couldnt sleep or eat, had severe anxiety and nervous tension and felt out of touch with reality. I am very lucky i have a supportive family and they were extremely worried.
I got off the meds and found mindfulness, meditation, exercise and still kept up with psychologist appointments weekly. I started to feel much better and although i had some bad moments, my days were general okay and i was coping and full of hope and belief.
2 weeks ago i felt another panic attack coming on. I used mindfulness and didnt go into the attack but the panic was there. Ever since then i have had feelings of anxiety, panic and depression everyday. I cry for no reason and feel emotional. I sometimes feel very angry and i generally feel extremely anxious. It has stopped me from doing the things i was doing that helped me previously. I have pushed friends away and it has gotten in the way of my work.
I went back to the doctor yesterday who prescribed me a different kind of medication. I also went to the health food shop who gave me supplements to address any defencies. I started on the vitamins, i am still thinking about the longer term medication. I know this decision must come from me,i am just trying to find the strength to give myself some space from my feelings and emotions to be able to make the best decision possible. It has been extremely difficult and i feel myself spiralling further every day.
Outside of this, i hold a management position in the community services field where i help young people who are struggling, i love soccer and sports and although i have had a somewhat difficult life with some childhood and teen trauma, i always had a positive outlook with everything until 2 weeks ago