Tough Times

You can do this babe. You are strong babe. Don't let it beat you. Stay with us. We are here for you.
@Former-Member 💕

You still with us babe?
@Former-Member

@Zoe7 I know you are right and I have never really thought about that day. I only ever quietly celebrated what would have been their birthday and that always seemed to help. I don't really understand why it's hit so hard tonight, watching two of my beautiful daughters eat dinner and mucking around just seems to have made it worse. Their father was so controlling but why didn't I ask for help then, I knew it was wrong, I knew that I would hate myself for it.

@Lee82 thank you beautiful

Hon you cannot hate yourself for a decision you made that you felt you had no choice in but I understand that pain and that loss @Former-Member Did you ever mourn the loss - or be allowed to - or did you shut it away in the back of your mind because it was too hard at the time?

Hello @Former-Member

I am sorry to hear that you are really struggling with your feelings and memories this evening. I notice how other forum members are supporting you. But if you are in a crisis and need to reach out for help off the forum please turn to your supporters and even to the help lines if you need someone else to talk to.

Please take care and I hope the new day brings you a little peace and calm,

Thinking of you

Whitehawk

No, I guess I didn't mourn at all. I lied to him about what I was getting done because I thought for sure he would take my baby and I would never see her again. @Zoe7

Nat is going to call in a bit. So I will go now. Thank you so much @Zoe7 @Lee82 your time and support is appreciated more than you will ever know.

@Former-Member

That is great to hear @Former-Member that you willhave that support there tonight. Remember you made a conscious choice with the fear that you had at the time - it is important to recognise that Hon.

Good morning @Zoe7,

I just wanted to say thank you for last night night. I have been able read back through what you said this morning and your words, support and understanding means a lot. I still don't understand why it hit the way it did last night but now I can start the process of healing that hurt too.

So from the bottom of my heart thank you for taking the time to sit with me and help me. 💖🦋

@outlander , I want to thank you also, knowing you where around was very comforting for me. You are kind and wise beyond your years my friend. 💜🦋

@Lee82 , I knew you where struggle sweetie and you where still with me as much as you could be. So thank you my love. 💛🦋

@Former-Member , thank you for sitting with us last night. Your support is also very much appreciated my friend. 💙🦋

Hi @Former-Member ... really glad you had the support around you that you needed last night. There are some wonderful members here, worth their weight in gold. You are one of those. 🌺

I know from personal experience that sometimes there is no obvious trigger or understanding of why these things hit when they do. I really do hope that you can begin the process of forgiving yourself and healing the hurt of the past. There is no blame on you for what occurred .. when there are no other choices available to us .. we do what we have to do. There is a certain strength in that, and I know you possess strength in spades. Use that strength now to heal the hurt, and to build a future which is kinder to you than what your past has been. Start by being kind to yourself, and gentle with your emotional self.

Hope you have a good day today and a much better evening tonight. You too @Lee82 . 👋

Sherry 💕

Thank you @Former-Member hope you have a nice day today.