MoochmouseContributor
I am alone
Taken awhile to do this. I know there are others in the same situation. Stuck at home because of self isolation with auto immune disease, or other sicknesses. Three weeks now I have lived within these walls. Both those that I can see and those in my mind. I have seen no one except my husband and our two dogs. A few chats on messenger to family members.
I don't know how long I can cope with this. I rang my mental health provider and they said they would let my case manager know that I wasn't doing well and she would ring me. That was three days ago.
I know that they are trying to get me to ring them when I need help, but I cannot be the only one who finds this so incredibly difficult. I very seldom ask for help, that was how I grew up. You relied on yourself. But when you cannot do that anymore you retreat inside yourself. And that's when I realize how small and insignificant I am.
I am trying to keep busy. Taught myself how to quilt. Done housework, all the normal stuff. The days are getting longer and longer. Cannot even bother getting dressed anymore. Cannot see the point. I guess I am just ranting here and this whole post is probably disjointed. Thank you for reading it though
