JosRappSenior Contributor
Isolating the Isolated
I know this virus is causing a great deal of anxiety for most people.
Work is closed. Indefinitely. Not that I miss the people there, or the environment.
Gym is closed. Indefinitely. Again, not that I miss anyone there.
Anywhere else I go is closed too.
I guess, in a lot of ways, it feels like it is expected that this isolation and social distancing should be easy for me. But it's not. It is really just highlighting how alone ... and how lonely ... I really am. There isn't even friends to text with, or video chat.
Have been trying a lot of chat and dating apps and sites. To try and find someone to talk with. But it is all extremely frustrating and depressing. I seem to be invisible on them. When someone does respond, they are just always promoting their Instagram or Snapchat, or pushing some webcam site. Or they quickly show themselves to just be scammers asking for money, bitcoin, gift card codes, ect ect. Have even tried a few art sites, but with out any success on any other. Just a reminder that, even a shared interest doesn't make it any easier to find someone to talk with. Let alone maybe make a connection.
Yes, I try the social spaces on here. I do and look at them. But they don't really feel like places for me, conversations I can get involved in. I prefer using an app anyway, since I might only check this site a couple of times a day unless I get a message saying there is a reply. Apps like whatsapp, or KiK. Have even been trying Facebook again, but still with no success. People just don't want to know me.
I don't want to be alone, in a world that has spent 44 years telling me I should be.
