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Not ok
I woke up worse than when I went to bed last night. I went to bed with suicidal thoughts, images and feeling a strong pull to just give into them. But what I want now is just horrible and part of me feels completely ashamed and the other part is like it's what we know and it will help. Right now I want to find someone to put me in my place, to make me beg for them to stop right now I don't even have to know them. I am not ok