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Corona
HI All,
I'm sure we all suffer with the news about the corona virus. I wish we could have a topic tuesday @Former-Member
I was struggling during the bushfires. They were very close but thankfully I was safe, though we had losses in the community. I started merging traumas. I was able to work out the differences between the past and current trauma during an admission.
I've started again. This time I cannot control my thoughts and feelings. I'm isolating myself, that doesn't help my mind, but I'm too scared to meet people, I even asked my son not to come home... The illness itself is terrifying, but I am terrified by the consequences, the consequences we currently have and the enormous impact this will have on the stability in the world. We might be at the edge of the world in Australia, with few cases compared to other nations, but there are nations that are dividing now, like the european union, travel bans, racism, financial downturn... and it scares me. I don't think I am able to see the differences to past trauma, I just feel panic every moment I don't distract. Once again watching helplessly as the horror unfolds. I can't do this again. I know there is nothing I can do and as in the past I can only be the silent watcher.
I'm trying to cut down on news coverage. I don't listen or watch the propaganda news and try to see a broader view. I'm trying to cut out social media. I can't disconnect from my relatives and friends in europe. I don't know how to protect myself, mentally. I try to plan my day and look after my basic needs and practice breathing and self-compassion. It doesn't help the panic. I feel this dead gremlin grabbing my throat tightly and with its teeth around my head and the ice cold breath down my neck and back. It hurts, physically. I can't deal with this, I know it is catastrophising, but it doesn't help to know that.
