Falling

Not good @Snowie thanks for asking though.

What have you been up too today my friend 💖

Did you want to talk about it @Former-Member

Haven't been up to much. Just some washing and cleaning of the kids rooms.

I am so glad that I don't have to clean my kids rooms it use to take me hours to do it and them only seconds to destroy it. 😂

I just don't know why I am the way am. Nothing like being alone, alone with your fears, alone with anxiety, alone with your failure as a mother, wife and friend. Sorry @Snowie I have been avoiding coming here cause I didn't want to bring anyone else down.

You are not bringing me down hun, its a good distraction for me anyway @Former-Member

I'm sorry that you feel so alone in real life. Please remember you are not alone on here.

Sometimes we don't have all the answers, we just have to sit with where we are at the moment, however difficult that is.

Thanks @Snowie and @outlander

I just don't know how to explain where I am at without possibly breaking the guidelines again. Don't want to do that again. I am safe just so you know but I am having flashbacks that seem so real that I am bruised today. They use to just happen at night now it's anytime of the day. Can't go out, won't drive because I have had to many near misses lately because my mind decided it was perfect time for a flashback.

I can understand those flashbacks hun and how debilitating they are. I am scared to drive at times in case I have one when driving. I can feel how much anxiety they cause for you.

I can glad you are safe @Former-Member

Is there anything you like doing when your mind goes haywire like this?

I am so sorry you understand them @Snowie its hard to deal with most of the time.

If I can focus long enough to pull out my diamond painting and start that usually works well

What about you what do you do when you need a distraction

@Snowie Idk I tried to watch some stuff but I just could not focus. I am still feeling really weird idk everything is a mess and I feel like I don’t idk I can’t explain it.

Hey @outlander am I allowed to ask what you are studying? Hope it's going well💖