Falling

@Jynx

It was beyond difficult and I have not coped well since. Emotions are all over the place and just want to give up on this whole moving forward gig.

Hey @Snowie , it was just horrible and messed up. I can't believe how hard it was.

I hope you're day has been good 💖

Hey @Eden1919 , just checking in to see how you are doing tonight. 💖

Hey @Former-Member , they are super hard. My thoughts and love goes out to you tonight 💖💓

@Eden1919hope you are travelling ok 💜

@Jynx @Former-Member @Snowie sorry for the late reply I am just struggling a bit with everything and idk it is hard to explain. Sorry about your appointment @Former-Member .

I am just feeling really weird like before I ended up in hospital things were really chaotic like I hadn’t spelt and I wasn’t eating or drinking and I was hearing things a lot and sometimes I was seeing things and I thought everyone was actually like a demon kind of creature and I was really scared and panicked and I couldn’t even speak properly and everything was just really scary and like I am trying to ignore it all and I am sleeping a little and trying to at least drink but the eating is still hard but I feel like I am one small thing away from being back there and the hospital didn’t help it just made me more scared and instead of being focused on the fact that I thought everyone was not humans it just made me focused on the fact that those non humans want to harm me and I have to hide from them and stay quite and do what they want so that they don’t harm me. And now I feel so trapped because I am still having a lot of the thoughts from before except now I just feel like I am not allowed to share them and that I have to put in even more effort to look normal just to avoid those maybe people maybe not people, people from making things even worse/more difficult for me. I am trying really hard but I still feel really off and I don’t know what to do long term everything is just a huge mess and no one around me understands or is even really trying to. If I say something that isn’t what they think they don’t try and understand they just think oh I am not normal and we need to make me normal even if that isn’t possible. I can tolerate not being normal but sometimes I just need some support/help to manage and I feel like everyone is so focused on me being how they want they are not helping me to do what I need to get through.

Ohh sweets, You really are having a rough time right now. Though I can’t help you I am here to listen and chat whenever you want.

Sending you love and hugs @Eden1919 💖

Sorry its so rough at the moment @Eden1919

You are showing great strength hun

Love and Hugs, Snowie 💓💖

@Former-Memberlove and hugs to you too 💜❣

@Snowie @Former-Member Thanks again, I am trying hard it keep distracted but i still feel really weird and idk everything is just so difficult I can’t even explain it.

You don't need to explain it @Eden1919 , just know that we are here for you.

It's good that you are trying to keep distracted even though it is difficult.

What have you been trying?

Hey @Eden1919 , like @Snowie said no need to explain as hard as it for you keep trying to distract yourself. My ex send me a a message today which I think applies to all of us.

"If the only thing you have managed today is keeping yourself together, then I am very proud of you"

Always thinking of you and Snowie. 💖