Is anyone around tonight? Depressed and suicidal

Happy birthday for last month @Sans911 Welcome to the 50 club my friend.

I don't feel 50 in my mind that is for sure, the body not so much lol. Hope you had a great birthday as well.

It was so much fun, I did not want it to finish after 3 laps, I could have done another 150 laps lol. It has been a birthday I will never forget. I am very lucky to have wonderful family and friends who love me that is for sure.

Well the birthday is officially over for another year lol. Still drinking Baileys though lol.

Sorry for taking a while to reply everyone, but thanks for the replies and kind words and reassurance, and even just clicking the support button. It means a lot. I wasn't trying to get attention though or sympathy or worry anyone, like I said I try to keep things to myself but also tell people. It's hard and a confusing situation.

i'll ask the new GP and my Psychiatrist when I see them again and explain more to them in as much time as I have. I feel a bit better when I see my psychiatrist and the new GP seems good, I've only seen her once though, I'm just scared because of the horrible experience I had with the previous GP.

Happy birthday though, sorry that I'm late in saying in it, I hope you had a good day @Scarecrowe .

Sorry for tagging everyone especially you @Scarecrowe & @Sophia1 since it's probably confusing for you, I'm just tagging everyone I've spoken to on here anywhere.

I haven't checked out the coping and positive threads yet but I promise I will, just haven't got around to it yet. Colouring in helps me as childish as it sounds even if I take my time. I'm thinking of doing the 1000 piece jigsaw I have sometime.

I love rock and metal music, I'll say more another time. I'm off to try and get some sleep, I'll reply and check the forums when I get the chance. Feel free to still reply and tag me in things anyone and I'll check that too.

Take care everyone.

I hope you have a restful sleep @Former-Member Anytime you want to talk about anything (especially music lol) tag me for a chat. I love colouring in too and jigsaw puzzles (the harder and bigger the better). Yes they are relaxing agreed.

I do hope you feel more like yourself soon. We are all hear when you need support.

Take care my friend. Hopefully hear from you soon.

And thanks again for my birthday greetings.

hello @Former-Member

I am not on here often yet coincidentally found a few of your posts/responses..

rule of thumb...old language ..regardless remains the same...

no apologies when expressing how one feels..'

well done for getting there..

no blame or apologies we do enough self destruction as it is..

yes most of us are the same..

we are very good at supporting others though..

so please accept that support..

most of us have.,.

we have no answers.

we want you to feel that you are not alone...

we are here ...perhaps different usernames..we are always here for you'

we will listen,....

hello @Former-Member

I have found colouring in mandelas calming in during extreme moments.

I find them extremely boring at other times????

distractions people say..

hmm

environment is the best for me...go outside and notice everything about the envrionment down to the most trivial to some detail....incredible impact....

notice the sounds, smells.

let me know

works for me...

take care

night night

sleep tight

xx

Hi @Former-Member

I'm learning a lot about the help services from you. I guess being undiagnosed for a long time I worked out ways mainly sports then finally on meds. when I lived with my mum I would plod around the yard and when she pasted my siblings moved in and I could plod again in the yard. But when they all moved out I never ventured again in the yard. my meds stayed and I joined groups and found I had a lot of anger so took it out on bosses and unions. I'll stop there its late I had a great night doing something new with sound healing a big group I felt lifted and drained now off to bed see ya.

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Morning all. Sorry that I didn't reply sooner, I ended up going to sleep at 12:30am, then the internet kept going out because it's been raining here since yesterday and still is now (I'm in Victoria, sort of regional).

Thank you all for your kind words, it means a lot. I'm always here for all of you too and everyone on the forums.

As for distractions, yeah colouring in helps me at times but it does get boring too sometimes. It depends how I'm feeling. I should try and read more and watch more DVDs/Movies I have just sitting there on my bookshelf.

Music helps too, or even looking at funny photos, videos, etc. And uplifting stuff helps too. I'll be sure to check out the positive threads.

I go for walks daily too, so that's also nice, it helps sometimes, I just try to take in my surroundings, such as the trees, the bird life, the smell of Eucalyptus trees (one of my favourite smells, especially after it's rained), stuff like that.

I'm always here for all of you too like I mentioned. And you can all call me Tayla if you want since that's my name (I'm 20 by the way). And you can always talk to me about anything too, happy, sad, anything.

Sorry to hear about your experiences too, I guess everything is different for everyone so therapists, help places (like triage, web chats, etc). Up here it just feels like no one cares where I live because it's sort of country. It sucks.

Tayla x

Hi @Former-Member

You are not a burden to anyone nor do you annoy anyone. It is ok to use this forum to get out your thoughts (as long as they are within the guidelines)

Sometimes just writing things down helps me too, so if it is helping you then continue to do so.

Sometimes we need a release and crying can do that for us. If you feel anger there are lots of ways to express it. Drawing, punching a pillow, doing some meditation helps me with my anger. Also talking it through on here does too, with some of my forum friends.

I hope you keep expressing yourself here as well as using those helplines for more immediate support.

Keep being you and take care tonight

Lots of

Snowie

Thank you @Snowie , I appreciate that.

I can't draw unfortunately as much as I'd love to but sometimes I get tracing paper and look up nice things and trace them, I know that sounds silly.

Colouring in can help me too sometimes because I focus on the sound of the pencils on the paper (or any other colouring things like gel pens, etc), choosing which colours to use, thinking what I've "created" if you will, stuff like that. Even if I stretch it out over a couple of hours and/or days.

I was punching my pillow yesterday actually haha. How does one do meditation though? I'm not sure if I've ever done it before.

Thanks for your suggestions and kind words, it really means a lot to me and I greatly appreciate it.

I'm always here for you and everybody else on the forums too. I'll have to check out some new threads aswell as catching up on ones I've already commented in.

Take care.