Im not sure of me.

I used to work as a support worker in a mental health setting, I found that helping others to find hope or simply to help them get out of bed that morning, this was extremely powerful and helped give direction to my life.

Since I have stopped working in the mental health sector I have found myself sleeping in, getting out of routine, using AoD alot more (beer) and getting into a unhealthy patter. I find myself losing hope, not only cause I'm unemployed but knowing that the service in my sector don't really care unless I'm in crisis.

I know that the mental health triage in my area are understaffed and over worked, I have worked with some community mental health practioners in my area that are burnt out or at least showede signs.

I feel like I do need help however former collegues whilst showing a surface level of care, are happy to judge people behind close doors (as I have been there listening) so I cannot turn to them, I have dealt with the local community mental health that only do crisis calls and want to outsource everything to either sonder or headspace, so given this I really dont know what to do or where to turn to.

Not sure what Ill get out of this so I guess here it is:

Have mental health issues, worked in a NGO that in my opinion only helped compund issues as I was vastly different in a social setting. Not sure where to turn and thought I'd ask the everyone for thier opinion?

Thanks for reading.