Not coping with the long weekend

HI...

I am currently living in a caravan park until we can build our house, and was just very recently diagnosed BPD. I have always been an extreme introvert with social anxiety. I hate crowds and noise but until I lived here I didn't know just how badly it would affect me.

Sometimes it's OK. The park owners have put us right at the back next to the bush cause they understand I don't like to be around other people.

But in busy times like over Christmas, New Years and now the Aussie Day weekend, the park is chock full and there are people EVERYWHERE. Right outside my window. I'm sitting here in the dark with all the window shades pulled up to block them out. I've had headphones on almost non-stop to block the noise and screaming kids.

But it's not just seeing them or hearing them. I can "feel" them. Not sure that will make sense to anyone else (unless you are an Empath), but I feel them there. It's making me so claustrophobic. I can't breath. I spent most of yesterday in my car out on our land, but even that's hard. It's hot and dry and there's no loo's etc. But at least there is no people there either. But the nosiest times are in the morning and evenings, when I have to be here.

I know it will all go away come Tuesday, but it's driving me NUTS!! And today they are having an Aussie Day Picnic in the Park, which is right next door with live music and rides and families, and kids and OMG!!!! I sold my house in a tourist town cause I couldn't handle the crowds and moved to this tiny rural town, which turns out to be F-ing party central. In the 3 months I've been here, there has been non-stop festivals and community crap in the park, which will be fine once we build, but right now I live next to the bloody park. I'm going nuts.