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I’m really sorry to hear you’ve had such a shitty day. You must be feeling so exhausted by it all.

Family and triggers can be tough. It is really awful when it feels like people aren't hearing or getting you. And not providing the support you need.

I hope tomorrow is a little kinder to you & you never doubt that you have the strength to get through this.

@Billy_ Thank you.

I am having another hard day and I am trying very hard to keep it together but certain things are getting a little out of control and I am struggling to stay within the boundaries. Oh well there isn’t much I can do at this point.

@Eden1919

I'm sorry to hear you are having another hard day. They are always difficult but when you have a few in a row they can feel all consuming and really weigh you down.

I'm to hear you are trying and that's all you can do. You should feel proud of yourself for that.

Is there anything in particular you would like to talk about? Or something you could do that is a special act of self care that may help you get through the day just a little bit easier?

Hey @Eden1919 how are you travelling today? We're all here to listen.

@Billy_ So good to see such an epic and congruent amount of support in the forums such as yours, hope you're travelling well too.

@Billy_ Thanks again @Former-Member thank you as well.

i had another panic attack last night and now I don’t know how to feel. Some scary things happened and now I feel really disconnected and worried. I am getting scared that people will try and hurt me again and it is complicated and hard to describe.

That sounds really horrible @Eden1919. I'm am sorry you are having to go through this.

Feeling unsafe is not a nice state to be in especially if you are dealing with your own inner turmoil as well.

Is there somewhere you can go to feel safer? Having safe spaces to go to is really important. If you can't think of one, maybe we can think of one together.

@Former-Member Thank you. I'm having a bit of a difficult week. But I will get there.

@Billy_ There is not a place I can go to escape this. It is everyone that is scaring me I am just feeling tired and I thought this had gotten less intense but now it is back and this isn’t a great time for things to be happening again and I don’t even know I can’t even sleep it off.

@Eden1919

That sounds really difficult. I am sorry you are having to deal with so much at once.

All I can suggest is try to think of anything or anywhere that would make you feel even a tiny bit better. I know nothing will take it all away now.. but even the tiny releases and comforts can help.

And reach out when you need to. Know you are not alone in this. You will get through it. Even if that feels impossible right now. I believe in your strength and resilience.

Hi @Eden1919 , Thank u for being there for me even though u have been going through a difficult time yourself.

I really empathise with what u have said. My husband knows that I have suicidal thoughts and images all the time, along with rly strong urges at times and he regularly talks about guns and knives, car accidents, plane crashes and he also watches a TV show regularly on which people get 'wacked' which he tells me all about. It is so triggering for me becoz I want to be one of those people that get wacked, even though I know it's only a TV show. It's very traumatising. My husband also has the same sort of attitude as ur family. If I say that I really don't want to hear it or please don't tell me about it, he just says something like, oh for goodness sake, and keeps going. It is very difficult.

I hope you are feeling better now eden.1919.

Best wishes xxx