Hey there @16sundayz thanks for your post and I am sorry to hear that your disorder is having a negative affect on the way you speak to yourself. You're not alone, I think quite a few of our community members have to reign in their self-talk I am sure a few of them will jump in soon with some ideas
My understanding is ED is the shortened form for "eating disorder". We have a lot of info on Eating Disorders here, in addition to our wonderful forum users insight as well 🙂
Have you got any support with your self-talk, such as a therapist or peer support group? Look forward to hearing from you.