LemonjuiceSenior Contributor
Back from counsellor (DID)
Hi, I went to see my counsellor today. I thought I was going to end in hospital. I couldn't commit to not suiciding tomorrow because while I could promise it, others inside couldn't. In the end, there was enough agreement that we would contact someone for help. That's the first scary thing to happen, the other is that for the first time with this counsellor, one of the others came out. That's only the second time that has happened in my life with a counsellor. It happens every now and then but no one knows it...people might think I am more hyper, or more depressed, but they don't know it's someone else. I am really strict about the others, no one knows, I have always kept them hidden. So this is big...I actually believed this wasn't real, that I had created it, talked myself into it. Now, I don't know. That was incredibly weird and I don't know how to feel about it. Also, when I drove down to the counsellor, my vision was blurry and I was thinking how I needed to get new glasses. On my trip home, I was sharing the driving with one of the others (there's still three of us controling the body, the usual 'caretaker' isn't coping so we took over), my vision was clearer. Weird.
