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I'm so scared

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor13 Dec 2019, 12:12 am AEDT

I'm so scared

**massive line of incoherent swearing**

Now that's out i can talk.

Tomorrow I take my first steps out of the hospital in nearly 80 days. I'm terrified if seeing my dad's house and seeing what assessments they have to do. The thing is....I can't live out my dad's house. I didn't want to say I was homeless so I said I'll live there.

My brother lives with my dad and there's history there.....((brother was a sexual abuser of mine.......))

So I'm terrified about tomorrow....I don't know what to do. I'm so scared.

Also fn court shit. I've been working on my letter for parole board tonight which kind triggered all the memories from my bro. I can't deal with the stress from all this trauma and everything hurts too much to sleep.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor14 Dec 2019, 5:05 pm AEDT

Re: I'm so scared

@The-red-centaur am really pleased that you wont be going back to your dads. It will be okay. You are in a safe place atm where people llike the social worker can help place you in appropriate housing. It will work out. Have faith The-red-centaur. With you love peaxxx

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marc6xSenior Contributor01 Jan 2020, 2:27 pm AEDT

Re: I'm so scared

Thanks for your reply. Yes your situation is tricky. I hope you will let me advise you, although I cant say Im the greatest expert:

Take good care of your finances and be frugal. Be picky with what you spend your money on and dont be afraid to chew on a raw carrot occasionally as this is perfectly healthy and very inexpensive. I do this myself. Also try to stay out of trouble (which is evidently what you are doing) - find safe places that you prefer to be if you are homeless.

If you want to get a part-time job selling The Big Issue that can help immensely with your finances. I did this and am still doing it for several years and it is the best job sometimes. The support you get is variable but it should discipline you and make you feel more at ease with your life issues.

I am quite sure you can find rent contracts for 6 months, sometimes even 3 months. Keep at it. I am not an expert as I havent tried to look for some years now. I wish you good luck. Stay on this forum, post regularly, and seek help...as hard as that may be.

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