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@Queenie 💜💜💜💕💕💕

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@Queenie

DOnt be too hard on yourself mate.

Great to hear you are working with small kids.

I actually never went to my graduation.

Not for fear. I was too busy with small children.

Hearing you about pills lack of effectiveness ... and symptoms needing diff treatment.

Thinking of you @Queenie

Congratulations on finishing your course

Not forgotten

Thank you @Maggie @outlander @Appleblossom @frog for your kind replies, I appreciate it.

I was supposed to go to a Melbourne Cup luncheon today but cancelled it, as I'm in no condition to go anywhere unfortunately. I am also signed off from volunteering at the moment, as my voices are really aggressive and wearing me down. More than a few times I've found myself reacting to something they have said or commented on. This is fuelling my paranoia too. I guess at least I still have insight so that's something.

@Queenie I’m sorry you missed the luncheon also, but as you have said, you have insight, it’s a huge plus. 👍👍

Take care @Queenie . 💕💕💕

@Queenie I have not had to cope with voices intruding and the distress and confusion that would mean. Kudos to you for having insight, and yet if the intensity is high then maybe something needs to give ....

I sometimes um and ah about social decisions I make, but ultimately if it is just a social thing then the main consideration is whether or not you/I/we would feel better in going through with it. I did not go to a group meal this week. I gave myself a hard time, but I also achieved a great deal this week, so in the broader scheme of things maybe it does not matter.

I am getting better at the idea that a social situation is one where I should have some joy or pleasure and if it is going to be an ordeal then there has to be important reasons that it should be endured ... sorry rambling ... hope it is relevant ... over time I am seeing that I can enjoy myself.

Hope your day was alright, better than alright, whatever you did.

Hey @Appleblossom , you're right in saying something has got to give. I have just got to hold out in whatever capacity I can until the 21 November. After that date, the Mrs says I can go into hospital and have my medication reviewed (I don't believe it is working effectively despite an increase recently).

I'd like to think everything will be okay until then, but being realistic too. If things hit the proverbial fan, I know I have to go into hospital earlier than the Mrs wants.

@Queenie Hello you are not forgotten. I know this isnt going to do anything long term...... but it is possible for you to go somewhere quite like in nature and just yell a big F-U to the voices? I know it isnt helpful excalty but it might feel a little relieving? but of course if your voices are likely to get mad then maybe not a good idea. I am not sure about you but meds really dont help me at all so I have to find other ways to manage that stuff and to an extent mine seem to be happier and less intense if i just listen to them and dont try and ignore them all the time. I dont have to do everything they say but sometimes just giving them the time to feel heard can make them less angry. I have had to try and find a way to understand them and where they come from because sometimes they actually have a reason for being the way they are. and pretending they arent real just makes them upset. mostly they are just trying to protect me but it can come out in a bad way, if i can understand what they are worried about we can normally come to some form of understanding and they relax.

Idk if any of that will be possible for you. but maybe trying something different could be a start.