Idk what to say....tw

Um.....hi.

It's been ages since I've been on. So I'm sorry if you don't remember me.

I'm scared to mention stuff coz of guidelines so this a has a tw coz of suicide.

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I'm meant to be grateful to be alive. 4 weeks ago I should have died. So many people have been angry and sad and shocked and in their way they've all shown their support. But it's just left me feeling confused and alone atm coz I don't feel the way they want me to.

I messed it up and now I might not walk again. And that scares me, walking was a massive part of my life. I wish I was dead. I'm stuck in a medical ward for months with very little support. I can't do this. I'm not strong enough to do what everyone else wants me to