Help, need to talk

Hope you are OK @Doglover

Repeating @Doglover 's call out for a @Former-Member .

Hope today is a bit better for you @Doglover Here if you want to talk.

Hi @eth Thank you for the tag on @Doglover's behalf.

Just letting you know that I sent @Doglover a check-in email this morning.

Hoping you are OK, @Doglover!

Kindest Regards,

Amour_Et_Psyché

@Doglover, what`s up my friend

@eth, @Gazza75

@Shaz51 @eth @Gazza75

I don't even know what to say, things are crazy out of control here. Restlessness and agitation- thru the roof. I can't sit down, I can hardly sleep and thats with meds, in a state of constant fear and panic. I have burning sensations throughout my whole body and head, and my mind is racing out of control. I'm in such a bad way I just don't know what to do. The specialists don't know what to do with me either. It's just awful, I'm so scared I saw my psych today, he said there's nothing they can do meds wise - wev tried everything. Meanwhile every moment of every day is torture.

I am so sorry @Doglover, its gone on far to long. How is your hubby coping? Is he providing enough support? It must be so hard for you both!

I don't know what to say other than can you travel a d get another doctors. Opinion? Are you able to eat OK and hold down food? So hard with no good sleep. Is there any relief when you bathe?

I really had hoped things would be better by now for you. Are you considering hospital again or was last time to much?

Lots of hugs, Prayers and ❤️❤️❤️❤️☕☕

Not really @Former-Member , but thank you. And thank u for the check in email this morning.

Hi @Gazza75 , just did a great big reply and somehow lost the lot!

Hubby is rly struggling. He's told me several times and told pdoc today that he has had enuf. He supports me by coming to pdoc apptment and taking me to other apptments but that's about it. There's is no emotional support. It's very hard, he's now married to someone he doesn't even know. We barely talk anymore. I'm a totally different person to who he married. I hav gone from being an outgoing, confident, capable, funloving person to just a shell. I barely talk, I'm scared of everything, am now a dependant, not a wife. It's devastating, and is having a devastating effect on us.

Eating ravenously at the moment. I think it's just boredom. The day drags on for eternity and I eat to fill in time. I lost a lot of weight in hospital but hav put it back on and plenty more.

I get very little sleep. I dread going to bed and I dread waking up as all my symptoms are blazing all the time and it's torture. It's been months of very little sleep each night. It rly is torture.

No relief with bathing. In fact self care has become difficult, and that's from someone who was always impeccably presented and cared very much about her appearance.

I just don't know what has happened to me. It's like I am a totally different person. There's the old me - the real me, and now there's the current me and they are 2 completely different ppl, as different as u can get.

I'm rly scared as to what is going to hapn to me. Rly rly scared. Our whole lives are falling apart. I can't work, my job has been held open for me but I'm about to lose it. Hubby needs to get a job but then what hapns to me, I'm scared to be on my own for a cpl of hours, let alone all day every day. It's like iv become a frightened child. And I can't drive now.. I just don't know what is going to become of me/us. It's not looking good. I'm rly rly scared.

I'm sorry to dump on u Gazza, thanks for 'listening'.

Hi @Doglover I'm so sorry to hear things are still so acute for you. I agree with @Gazza75 's suggestion about finding another Dr for a 2nd opinion. In your situation I would probably also look for a different psychiatrist. Saying there's nothing left to try is just not good enough. Especially in terms of sleep management. I am sure that if you could get some decent sleep all sorts of symptoms you are having would at least diminish.

I was experiencing a lot of what you are when I was approved for the disability support pension. I spent about 2 weeks making a list of my symptoms, jotting it down whenever a new one presented, and I only had to see the Dr centrelink appointed (with my list) one time and was approved immediately. Wondering if you've considered applying?

Also wondering if Hubby could go on a carers pension and if that would take some of the pressure off financially and for him to go back to work. Just asking - ignore if it's not a good suggestion.

Thinking of you and sending warm wishes for some relief soon.

Hi @Doglover , I'm sorry about the missing/lost post, that seems to happen to you more than most. It's happened to me a few times and its so frustrating when it occurs on a phone. Sometimes you can go back and there is a 'link' you can press that may recover it. Its worked once or twice for me anyway.

Thanks so much for writing out a reply again, I know it must be diffucult for you.

Maybe you and your husband can look at getting the carers support for him as @eth suggested and perhaps you could look at applying for the NDIS to get further support for yourself.

It sure sounds like you could do with it and it might alleviate some of the pressure on your marriage.. I can only imagine how much your mind is racing, its not a healthy state to be in for so long. I was manic for a few weeks and it had a pretty devastating impact on me, coupled with poor sleep, the outcomes aren't good DL.

No need to apologise @Doglover , none whatsoever. Wish I could do more to help you, I really do. I can only say that deep down inside you are the same person you were, the woman your husband fell in love with.

I know it might be diffucult to look for more help, financially, time wise, emotionally and so on, but, I really think its worth a shot. As Eth said, if you can address the sleeping issue, it should bring you at least some relief.

Try and be mindfuli with your eating, have healthy things when you can. I know it might be diffucult as this is probably one of the few pleasures left open to you.

Can you maybe look at doing some crafts or hobbies that you enjoy, reading or colouring in, something to keep your thoughts focussed and from spiralling round and round?

Take care my friend, lots of and hugs. Please keep checking in when you can, even just click the support button if you don't feel like writing anything. 🙂