Unsteady

Hey everyone, today I'm going into a semi social setting that could be a bit tricky - a friend of mine who I'm going with has an ex wife who is a viper and she will be there. I have looked into this as insightfully as my head will allow me to... Do I want to do this to create a possible drama (so at home with drama & turmoil) or for the right reasons. To get out, support my friend, watch his daughters performance. I'd like to think my motivation is the latter - but there's a tiny bit of me that gets the thrill of being in a situation that could create a little chaos.

Anybody else relate to this? I've made my mind up that I'll go (after hours and hours of deliberating - you can just imagine 😆) but I do have to be careful as I'm in a fairly good place atm and don't want to be tipped back into the abyss.

Would love love love to hear if anyone else has these situations and how they've gone if thats ok to ask? I don't want to upset anyone.

Love n hugs my BPD fam X🐞X