Dealing with intrusive thoughts - my struggle!

Hey @Molliex

Sorry to hear re the awful days, I do understand though I have them too. Yes there are definitely some silver linings for you with your little one there.

I will definitely sort out a Pdoc appt today , talking to Mr Angels will be a bit harder as he worries and honestly he gets frustrated with me I think he.... I know he gets tired of being the carer in the relationship.

His frustration can make me more depressed so I have to tread carefully.

I really hope you get some sunshine in your day today my friend 🥰🥰

When this lockdown started I was able to stay reasonably positive. But as it's dragged on, I've fell back into a deep depression. I'm struggling to have hope or positive feelings. Every day feels the same and I feel like I'm suffocating with how small my world has become. I've never had social anxiety, but I now find myself very shaky and nervous if I have to go out.

I'm sure none of this is unique, and many feel the same. I'm exercising, meditating, and staying in contact with friends the best I can. But it's hard. I'm not sleeping much, and I'm over it..

Talking with my psychologist on Monday, so hopefully that helps.

@Angels333 @BlueBay @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @MDT @outlander @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @TAB @Former-Member @eth and anyone else who is reading 🌻🌻🌻

Sorry to hear all that @Molliex ... but hang in there, things will improve.

Sherry

I hope talking to your psychologist helps @Molliex It certainly is a tough time for so many but not sleeping much would undoubtedly be adding to your feelings and depression. It is hard enough being isolated without depression creeping back in too - feel for you Hon

Hey @Molliex

I completely understand the depression creeping back in. Maybe that increase in meds is still an option that you talked about with your psychiatrist? Of course talking to your psychologist will be good tomorrow. Is it face to face or telehealth?

I suffer debilitating social anxiety. Going to work/church/volunteering etc I really struggle to enjoy myself. And now everything has stopped I was feeling so much better at home but my social anxiety is also worse going out and even zoom meetings stress me out. I think it's natural to feel this way❤

Talk to you psychologist and get some strategies. I find checking the facts really helpful it's a DBT skill and there's a few others.

Other than that I am so sorry you're feeling this way but am glad you reached out here my friend xx

Are you working tomorrow and all week? Praying for you Molls 💐

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Love Angels333

Hi @outlander. Thanks for your reply. I've been going for a long walk every day. I really like that, it helps me wake up. Yesterday I did some colouring in my garden. It's just encountering groups of people that I struggle with.

How are you going?

Thank you @Zoe7. Lack of sleep really does make everything harder than it needs to be. How are you going?

Hey @Angels333. Thanks for your thoughtful reply as always.

It's a telehealth session - no more face-to-face anything these days. Will talk it through with him, he's usually pretty good with finding a strategy to help.

You're right that it's probably natural. The message that has been hammered into us for months is 1.5m distancing - so when that's breached I just react to it.

Yes I'm still working full time. Many in my industry have lost their jobs, so for now I'm lucky. I'm worried for how long though.

Today I'm making food for a friend who just had a baby. Her family are interstate so they don't have any help. Will cook a few meals and leave it at their gate. I'm sure I'll also do many puzzles and games with my little one too. She's obsessed with water colour painting right now.

What are you doing today lovely?