Hot Chocolate Anyone ?

you are here among friends @soul , giving you a big hug and a knowing hugs , you are not alone our friend

Weird isn't it that being involved with someone who has a mental illness ends up with you having one too? Like it's infectious even though you may not get the same strain.

I really was struggling with my purpose, who I mattered to, my future. All that stuff.

Hearing you @soul 😞

Was worried about you after you left the topic discussion but didnt know whether to say anything or what to even say.

I really appreciate it how you guys aren't judgemental. And a hell of a lot cheaper than going to the shrink.

I saw some emails coming through but I didn't read them or go back to the forums. It was too much for me to handle - hence all the walking. Listening to music and just walking nowhere in particular. At one stage, I had to look at Google maps to get back on track.

@Determined No, I usually only do it in small batches, so a wooden churn would be too big, and those lovely glass jar ones are very collectable... $$$. I use an ordinary hand mixer. Not at all traditional but it works.
I have once used a wooden churn when I was helping out with a living history demo. I've also used a peanut butter jar to make butter while on holidays. Go for a stroll around the camping grounds shaking jar as you walk, and by the time you get back the buttermilk's ready to pour off. 🙂

All here to help @soul, you have been a pretty big help yourself on here when people have need an ear,

The thing is I have kept this a secret from everyone except from one friend and my daughter. I have not reconnected with friends because I don't want to be in the awkward situation where I would have to lie to them.