Self Harm

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@Angels333 thinking of you and sending warm wishes that today is a better day for you.

@eth @Faith-and-Hope @BlueBay @Molliex @TAB @Zoe7 @MDT @Shaz51 @Adge

Hey all... sooo I quit my Tuesday shift!!! Now I'm only working Saturday. I feel so much relief I was getting so stressed out.

The only hiccup is I let Mr Angels thinks I got put off due to slow business due to coronavirus. It is true that my boss had to let a few people go but I volunteered to go.

I feel mixed emotions

I also passed my first written assignment at TAFE.

I see my psychologist tomorrow and I know I need to see him as I've been tackling radical acceptance and trauma which is overwhelming.

Sending good vibes to y'all ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

XOXO ANGELS333

Big congrats on passing your first assignment @Angels333 I remember you were struggling with it at the time so to both get it in and pass is awesome - proof you can do it Hon and that is really positive.

I hope you just doing one day a week now reduces your anxiety and that combined with your studies you can begin to feel a little better about yourself Hon ...because you have so much to feel good about

Thanks @Zoe7 I am going to feel so much better on Tuesday not going to work... Another assignment this week...

Congratulations for passing you

R first assignment @Angels333 xoxo

Goodluck with it @Angels333 You have passed one so you know you can do it Hon ...sending good study vibes your way

Huge congrats on passing your first assignment @Angels333! That's so great. I'm glad you've been able to reduce your stress/anxiety by dropping one day of work.

I hope this week is a good one for you 💜

@Molliex @Zoe7 @MDT @BlueBay @Shaz51 @eth @Faith-and-Hope @TAB

Urgh today took a downturn. I now have to work tonight, I don't know why... also it seems I didn't pass my assignment I have a few questions to resubmit, that will take a few days... I noticed they said resubmit on the teacher notes so I sent an email and the head teacher was very apologetic saying the pass looks like a mistake.

Then I saw my psychologist yesterday and we focused on whether I am ready to address my traumas and he said I'm not ready for EMDR yet or anything like that.

I felt terrible after, suicidal... the thoughts are still there but better today. I suppose if I can't even discuss therapy options without feeling so terrible then it goes to say I'm not ready for the therapy yet.

I'm still feeling awful after yesterday, I am getting worried that I just won't cope and end up in hospital again. I have taken the morning slow and now I think I am ready to work on my assignment.

Mr Angels knows I had a tough day but not the details nor that I have some SI

Urgh sorry for the rant...