Self Harm

Self harm is a burden. it's releasing. It's controlling. It overpowers all reason. It's shameful. It's hurtful. It knows no boundaries. It's the monster that hides in the shadows waiting for the time to pounce. It runs my life and I don't know how to stop it.
@Angels333 @Former-Member

Are you safe @Lee82

I am safe @Former-Member

Hey @Lee82 @Former-Member I am glad you posted here Lee. But sad to read your insights into self harm. Yes they're all too true. It's been 5 months since I have been able to get some control self harm. Before that it has been a journey over many years. Since then I have had the occasional backwards step but it is possible Lee there is hope.

I know that sounds like a platitude because I have been there where SH is an addiction an everything feels hopeless.

I'm definitely nowhere near reconciling my MH issues but one thing is working for me now. First, hospital has been the key for me providing a break from self harm then the right medication has proved very effective for me and thirdly DBT therapy has helped me to be accountable and gain the skills I need to manage my emotions for which unregulated emotional responses are a trigger for SH for me. A big emotion for me is managing the emotion of shame, shame from trauma and shame from the self harm, then sitting with that emotion and letting it be.

Ah I'll pray for you @Lee82 and you are blessed to have forum friends like @Former-Member to catch up on you in the middle of the night.

I hope I can be some help to you my new friend

Love Angels333

Good morning @Angels333

SH is a monster and through good therapy I had not let it in years, unfortunately a workplace incident in December undone all of that and I am back to struggling with it ever since. I find it difficult to remember how to cope, strategies I used before and what works best for me. I am however starting again, new holistic counsellor who embraces all aspects of my mental health issues and is an absolute gem. Hoping that it doesn't take long to get back to pre December.

I am very lucky to have meant @Lee82 here. She has been a source of comfort and support in some of most darkest days.

Would love to chat to you if you would like 💖Izzy

Hello lovely @Faith-and-Hope . I've been so busy with work, and haven't been around much. I work with international students, so you can imagine that it's a very tough time for many of them.

I am doing ok. Some days I'm quite positive and able to count my blessings, other days I'm despondant and feel utterly hopeless. I suspect that's pretty normal given the circumstances.

How have you been? I am afraid I haven't been keeping up with what everyone is up to lately.

It's really hard to open up to people @Angels333 . I felt embarassed for a long time too, but now I own my MH struggles as a part of me, it is not all of me, but it's a part. You are not a burden, never.

I'm very glad you're going to DBT today. I hope it goes well and you're also able to get an earlier appointment with you pdoc.

Sending you best wishes for a good day.

Hi also to @MDT @Former-Member @Lee82 and others passing through

Hi @Molliex , hope you have an ok day 💖

Hey guys I haven't been receiving all my notification when I am tagged. And them sometimes I do read them and can't respond at that moment so I then forget to reply So if I missed you I am so sorry, I love you all and only hope the best for you.

Things are okay, I have been talking with Mr Angels quite a bit about how I'm going and about the SH thoughts. That's quite a development as I usually only share that information with my psychologist and psychiatrist I am too ashamed to talk to anyone else.

I've been painting a new painting, that has been good. If I finish it in the next few weeks I'll put it as my avatar.

@Former-Member @Molliex @MDT @Lee82 @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @TAB @Adge @BlueBay