Have a day

When people are going through some “stuff” with their mental health, it is really difficult to tell them to have a good day without sounding patronising. You don’t want to wish them a bad day by any means, so I just wish them a day... to heal, to rest and regroup, to muddle through the best way they know how.

This is where I’m at. I’m near totally disengaging from people. I’m worried that I’m not going to graduate as I can’t secure a placement despite trying just about everything. Something I’ve invested so much time into and to fall at the near finish line is heartbreaking. My father hardly ever speaks to me, I’m afraid he hates me.

I also have to come off one of my injections, as it is causing potentially serious side effects. This will mean I will become unwell yet again. It’s depressing, it truly is. I’m also concerned about cognitive decline caused by schizophrenia. I fought so hard to remain steadfast that I’m as intelligent as ever, but it’s time to face facts... there has been a markedly increased amount of decline in several areas of my intellect.

So here’s me, wishing myself to have a day. Tears are slowly falling.

I apologise for my absence on the forum. I had an elevated period which saw me end in respite. I guess this is the aftermath.