Is what I am going through linked to my past?

Hello everyone,

I recently joined here and introduced myself to you all, but it got me thinking are my current issues related to past experiences????

I was abused as a child by my next door neighbor twice, it was never spoken of again by my family...so I guess it was normal for me after that when I grew up that things that happened I never spoke about or have the ability to deal with things. When I was 26 I was diagnosed with Endometriosis, truly horrific every month to say the least. My husband at the time didn’t console me nor my mother either who had similar issues during her teens, so once again I ignored what was happening to me and focused on others. It wasn’t until you was injured in 2009 that all of these past experiences came crashing through in the form of a major panic attack, I was diagnosed with Adjustment Mood Disorder, Depression and PTSD, I didn’t leave my unit for 2 whole weeks, didn’t shower, I was a mess! I wasn’t on medication just a couple of sessions with a medical Centre Psychologist and that was it.... Yay, I’m fixed now.... NOT!!!!

Fast forward to 2013 when I am diagnosed with Perimenopause, no problem I thought I can handle this.... but little did I know that everything I had dealt with( or thought I had dealt with) in the past would come back with a vengeance ... the crazy thoughts in my head, the depression, full on anxiety & panicky feelings, it has gotten wi se to vet the last few days and it feels like I just have to get away from everything...does that make sense? My 2nd husband I have to say is a full on hyperactive person who is constantly on the go, who doesn’t really get what is going on with me... he just says “What?, are you still tired, why??? He doesn’t ask how I am any more and you have spent the good part of a year sleeping on our lounge as I cannot bear him to touch me as to be honest I feel physically ill. He has temper tantrums and I am feeling it may be time for me to be on my own to deal with what’s going on with me.

Has anyone else here had similar thoughts, experiences, I would like your thoughts are n this.

Thanks for listening to me ramble, hope I made sense lol

Wild54