Thanks @BryanaCamp , ur a sweetheart. Yes im so disappointed that i cannot use my private insurance yet so that i can go to a private hospital. From @Bunniekins and others posts it seems the difference is like chalk and cheese. I honestly dont know if i could handle the public hospital, i rly dont. I feel dirty the whole time im in there and some of the other patients freak me out, especially some of the male patients. My husband was concerned for my safety and thats one of the reasons i didnt stay when i was technically admitted. My hubby just wasnt comfortable with it, neither was i. I would love to think i could hold out til private health cover kicks in but i cld only do that if things improve from where they are now, which doesnt seem likely given that they keep getting worse.
"Do you feel that hospital may provide relief from every day life & an opportunity to rest?" Definitely not if it was a public hospital, i think i would be on edge the whole time, but maybe if it was a private hospital it might provide that. Unfortunately there is no relief from my physical symptoms which are torturous, and i am getting less and less sleep at night due to those physical symptoms, that there is not much rest being had. If they cld find a way of dealing with that then rest and relief from the pressures of life may well be the result.
Thrs pros and cons to being married or single i think. In some ways it must be hard not having that support, but its also very difficult to be married but not get the support u need from your husband - its a very lonely place to be. He doesnt understand MI and doesnt rly want to try. I know he gets very frustrated and annoyed with me that i cant just "snap out of it". It has had a massive impact on our marriage. I almost think it wld b good for me to go into hospital (private) to giv him a break from having to deal with all of this too. He might realise how much he misses me!
Im amazed at the simple things that r a struggle for u, for no other reason than u seem so clever, articulate and 'together' (as much as u can b with an mi) on these forums. Im sorry that those things r a struggle for u.
Yes i hav fibro, and absolutely the pain increases with the anxiety, and lack of sleep as well.
Great that ur pdoc (is that ur psychiatrist) was able to help with the sleep situation and in turn reduce ur pain levels. We havnt bn successful in finding anything that consistently helps with my sleep. I keep increasing the med im on (under psychs direction) which helps for 1 night then things deteriorate from there. It rly sux. Im at the stage now where i dread going to bed because of the torture that awaits. That is one of the reasons why i think i might need to go into hospital.
This post seems rly long winded, sorry about that!
Thank u for all ur love and support @BryanaCamp it means so much. Im glad i can post on here too and hav ppl like urself provide so much support. Thank u.
Love and hugs to you.
Doglover
