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Conflicted emotions
Hi all,
Has anyone ever felt so emotionally conflicted about something because they want to use their view of whats morally right to make a decision but that decision could affect their mental well being.
six months i have been mentally stable, no meds, no psych and no bed ridden depression.
yesterday i read an email that left me feeling shocked but mentally and spiritually relieved but at the same time saddened. this next bit is going to be trigger warninged as i explain why but the shortened version is my MC (male creator) is back behind bars for a min of 30 without a chance of parole or early release.
for those who have chosen to read this section i was sexually abused althrough childhood from the age of three my MC who is my mothers step father was my first abuser for 7-8months before he was caught.
he was given 40years on multiple counts of rape, incest and pedophelia for not just me and my mother but 14 other girls only 2 of which werent either his step daughter or biological but was released after just 12. the state had declared him reformed because of his age.
they were wrong!!!
he got married within 2 years of being relesed (dont know how) and had 3 kids including another little girl. she is now 7. i have known about her and her 2 younger brothers for the last 5 years but have not contacted them for obvious reasons.
last year it came out that he was being investigated for possibly interfearing with my younger half sister and these claims were turned into truth. their mother was allowed to keep them as long as she made no contact with him but she turned up to his sentencing hearing with the children as support for him because she apparently just doesnt believe he is capable of such things.
this led to the kids being taken away.
my moral dilemma:
his current children my half sister and 2 half brothers aged 7, 4 and 2 can be placed with family as long as they are blood related. their mother contacted me asking if i would do a dna test and take them because her family wants nothing to do with her or them and its sad and i know what it can be like in the fostering system and while every moral fiber of my being is screaming at me to do it my mental stabability questions whether i could handle it considering the part of my life they are linked to. they are currently not allowed contact with their mother, i definitly would uphold that but ive also got to consider the impact not only on my mental health but my son who is already going through alot. any suggestions?
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