Really struggling

@Eden1919I am sorry you're struggling and not coping too well. You do have a lot on your plate. Have you thought about changing Drs? You need someone you feel comfortable with, and that who can support you. I care about you and I am worried about you. What would you like to do?

@oceangirl thank you for your reply i told the gp at the end that i would like to see someone else so i will have to figure that out. and yes i have 12 assignments due in the next 2 weeks and then 2 more exams plus i have an inspection of my appartment and that took me 10 hours of cleaning last time only to be told it wasnt good enough because the shower screen was not clean enough. and i have all my usual classes for one of the 2 weeks. i am just going to try and sleep tonight i dont have class tomorrow so i might get an extra hour or 2 if i am lucky.

@Eden1919Your welcome hon. You just need to focus on one thing at a time. I would ring your agent and ask if you can put off the inspection until you have finished all your assignments and exams. I think its good that you're putting sleep as a priority. Remember to have some down time too and get out in the fresh air. Hope you sleep well.

@Eden1919 Hi Eden1919 I am hoping that you have had some sleep or am sleeping now. I basically agree with everything that @oceangirl has said and really cannot add much more to it just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and we all care about you and wish you well. Keep us posted with how you are going. Love greenpeaxxx

Sending you love @Eden1919, it sounds like you do have a lot going on and we can't imagine how that feels for you. You must be incredibly exhausted with exams, uni assignments and everything else going on, so no wonder your visit to the GP was frustrating (especially if you feel like your doctor wasn't listening to you). We hope you got some rest last night.

Along with @Bunniekins and @oceangirl's suggestion, are you able to see a new doctor? It's important to feel like they are listening to you and that you trust them, so this may be something to focus on once your exams are over. You aren't in this alone, and remember if you feel overwhelmed to give one of the services a call, even just to chat.

Do you think that writing down what you need to focus on (so you have an actionable list) will help you in the short term?

@oceangirl i am living at the university accomodation they are the ones doing the inspection and they know very well that this is a terrible time but they dont care their excuse is that it should always be clean. and the apartment is not dirty i just didnt scrub every inch of the glass shower screen anyway i cant get that changed i will just have to cry while cleaning again. thank you though.

@Bunniekins thank you I hope you are ok.

@Ali11 I will have to talk to them about another doctor but i am not doing that until later. i got a little bit of rest but i did wake up many times.

@Eden1919If thats the case- I would do a little bit each day. You will need to have breaks in your study, and when I was studying and needed to clean- I would clean to clear my head and plus I felt good after it was done. You will feel good too, those tears shows how strong you are.Don't stress about the cleaning, I am sure you will get it done. Btw you're not alone we are here and do care about you. Take care and check in when you can please. Thinking of you hon

Hi @Eden1919 ,

Im really sorry that you are struggling so much at the moment and, without going into all of my stuff, i really can empathise.

It does sound like you have a bit too much on your plate at the moment. Its probably a silly question but is there any way that you can lighten the load a bit? You need to take care of you and it doesn't sound like that is at all possible at the moment.

Do try and take care of yourself.

@oceangirl yes i am trying to just do thing step by step i am just not even managing that.

@Doglover at this point it is not possible to reduce the work load and you are right i am not taking care of myself but that just seems to be my life, me constantly burning out so that others can feel better about themselves. i am not allowed to have me time or to take time for me those are not the cards life dealt me and thats just how it is. and if that means a shorter existance then that is what i get i suppose.

I forgot to put this at the end of my last post. anyway i feel HORRIBLE i feel really agitated and i cant get anything done and i want to scream and i dont feel right and i just i dont even know anymore i am trying so freaking hard and everything is just a total mess and not just that but my head wont stop it is like screaming at me and it doesnt even stop to take a breath and i just ugh i cant i am so annoyed.