Why "Orwellian"?

Why did I pick the name Orwellian?

It is from George Orwell and some of the concepts he raised, mostly that of the "Thought Police" in 1984.

It was in late 2017 when I was not coping that I was diagnosed with PTSD due to long term workplace bullying. I did not realise that could result in PTSD, however it made sense to me. It was a short time later I was using an online counselling service where I was honest about my feelings that I was further traumatised. The online session was cut off and I was feeling low. Next thing I knew there were two cops at my door. I asked them to leave but they would not. They put me into their van, with the A/C on high in the middle of winter. They would not even let me dress. I was bounced around the back of that wagon then dumped at the hospital where I was locked up for a night. The next day I had to tell the staff there what they wanted to hear to get out. I vowed I would never go there again.

My symptoms continued. I was alone at work one day in February 2018 when the Bully manager sprung a sudden meeting on me. It was just the two of us. I may have appeared calm but the inside of my head was anything but normal. I was having a crisis. I ran away and ended up at the Community Mental Health from where I was sent home with a Sick Certificate. I did see my GP and I then put in a claim under Workers Compensation.

Some time later my GP said I should go back on a Return to Work plan as requested. The Return to Work Coordinatior told me that the Bully had been moved to another area. I agreed to return to my previous duties. Then some days later she phoned to say she was mistaken and he is going to be moved but not yet. I said I cannot go back there. She kept insisting it would be OK and eventually I told her of the incident where I had to run away due to the confronting thoughts I had. She agreed that I needed an alternate place to work and was going to consult with her superiors. She was then told that they needed a Risk Assessment. I agreed, but they never organised one.

The next thing I knew I was being disciplined for the "thoughts" I had had. I had to respond. My choice was to deny it and make out the RTW coordinator was lying or state that I had the thoughts, which I did. The Code of Conduct does not address thoughts and I had not made any threats. My actions were to remove myself and seek help, which is what is advised.

The next thing I was informed that they had found against me and it was being moved to the next level. I then got a letter from the CEO saying that they were looking at sacking me. I was asked to show cause why I should not be terminated. I pointed out that I had done nothing to breach the Code of Conduct and I had just informed the RTW Coordinator of my thoughts when it was necessary. They continued and I lost my job after 29 years.

I went to the Union as I had been sacked due to a Mental Health condition. They went to the Fair Work Commision. The damages there are limited to 26 weeks pay for Unfair Dismissal. They gained 20 weeks, but to get that I have to sign a Non-Disclosure Agreement, which means I could not write this. I have not signed.

I feel that my dismissal was not Unfair, it was Unlawful. I feel I was sacked due to a Mental Disability (PTSD) and that is illegal. I cannot get anyone to help me to persue this, either in the courts or media.

Sorry this is quite long but I feel desperate. I now have no job, no income and pressure on me to sign a Gag Order to get just a few dollars which will not last long. I cannot find another job. Leaves me with very few options.