A return

Hello all,

I'm baaacccckkkk

I was apart of this forum about 3.5 years ago. At the time I was in a pretty dark place and instead of working on me I found that even though I wanted with all my heart to help every one here I was using it to hide my own things instead of using this the correct way to help myself. So I took a step back, now I feel more confident that I can help and heal at the same time.

For thoes who don't know me (and thoes that don't remember) I have PTSD among other things from a 10+ year DV relationship, I am a mum of the 2 best kids in the world, and am engaged to the most wonderful man ever.

Recently I have been having diffculties with feeling like I'm so alone in this world but I can't step out there to make a friend. I made the decision to cut alot of ties with old circles as they were joint friends with my ex and I found out they were reporting to him about my commings and goings which he was using against me as a scare tatic. Any that I have tried to make recently I just feel like a third wheel all the time. I can not remember the last time I got a call or sms (and to be honest I'm scared to look) of just "how are you".

Also I'm hoping to get some help with the kids as parenting is hard.

Thankyou for listening to me blab