GeminiLionSenior Contributor
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I am still learning about the Sane.org and the Forum setup. I finally had time to skim through the community rules this morning.
I thought if I create my own thread which I can repeatedly use would be most manageable and less cluttered. Question: Would this work? or even encouraged.
So it is May 2019. And I have sent away the two lease agreements. I hope I made the right decision. Thanks to those you commented on my dilemma it did help me with my choices. I do have pdoc that I can call and when she is not busy she will return my call or her receptionist will help if it is possible. I'm pretty lucky to find a good pdoc that will take the time with me. Been seeing her for last few years now. Although we have exhausted all the learning stragedies now, instead just reminder how to use them when needed.
This month (like last month but come on, it was Easter), I am trying to get back into improving my diet and health. I have done successful second half last year but still more to go. I am 250 day AF (including DF which would be longer). I have no desire of breaking and going back to my old ways (I think I'm AF/DF for life now).
My goals for this month is cutting back on the (SF) softdrinks and no more pretending to be the Easter Bunny. I usually walk avg 6000 steps per day most days. But I now understand I really should be doing 10,000 steps! I have trouble doing phsyical exercises due to my very painful right shoulder (and arm). This has also impacted on my studio work. But nevertheless I am going to be doing much more in both areas. For those who don't know, I am well-known artist in my community and have some recognition on a national scale. But my 15 minutes of fame was over a decade or more ago. Sometimes I think my art passion is lost but I do cling on to it. I am a born artist, and born into an artistic family.
I am very lonely. I did have friends in year 12 and continued for the next year or two after school when I came home from university. But everyone has drifted away from each other and gone seperate ways. I have trouble communicating with other people. I consider myself a Vulcan. I was diagnosed only a few years ago as Aspergers. But being an adult age 41 (now) I cannot get support and access to services (unless I paid fees myself). I guess I have gone through life anyway but if I had a blue box and could change the past.
I have have never been in a relationship and still consider myself a child without experience and maybe it is far too late for me. I have been on dating sites, apps and groups, but only bad experiences and have since deleted them all. I have considered giving another try but really really scared. And who will teach a 41 yo?
I am an only child in this marriage. But both my parents have married before a few times. Dad never remarried or form any new relationship with anyone when my Mother died when I was 21yo. I actually didnt know dad much back then, now I am his carer. I have an awkward relationship with dad's children as dad does himself. Some will not recognise me. Different story on Mother's side but they live afar including other countries. One of mum's son come out after a long marriage and is now known as Emily. I too have a secret, but I am just consider myself bisexual. I am unsure what I am. And I have learnt not to tell anyone, that I must keep it to myself. I am unsure anyway (I get attracted to both and might just be due to loneliness, or maybe I am asexual?).
I think I have written a novel. I hope this gets approved. And I see how this Sane.org helps me.
