Not sure what to do questions.

I am feeling down but not too bad but its there underlying. Dream nap this afternoon with the cat. Working on my computer at the moment before watching old Sliders and getting into painting later. Tomorrow is 1st of May so I have a box full of goals and ambitions.

I'm feeling really lost. I dont write stuff on social media anymore. So hearing people's thoughts here.

I care for my dad (84yo) and we live a block away from each other. We both got rent rises with his being excessive $38 increase per week (that is a whack on the pension!). We with same rental company. I try and keep my business seperate. Managed to get his rent down to just $25 per week. For the record, mine was just $10 increase. However they changed his lease agreement to just 6 months than the usual 12 months and I questioned why this is, confronted them with the question will they rise his rent again. Got a nasty response saying that if doesnt like it then vacate the premesis in two months and pay the $188 per week rent until does move out. That 6 month lease is because the owners are getting divorce. So I calmly replied that perhaps best to destroy the email as the context on the communication may get you into trouble. Last night (yes during the night!) I got three emails with the first sorry and the other two trying to explain herself that she was just relaying the message. I never replied and there been no communication today.

This is my debacle. I am fine where I am living and rent is good. A new 12th lease with just a small rent rise which was lower than expected as the area rents have been getting tight again. If I live by myself I would be $75 pf better off than living with dad, and better off living by himself at a $20 pf. Based on a typical standard house here being $350 pw. Big problem is dad has an indoor pet so that reduces what he can apply for. From my investigation he would be paying average of $220 - $250 per week for decent unit. This would now mean be worse off up to $50 pf on the higher end.

He is eligible for a retirement style rental avaiable private community village nearby with a little unit and pets are in fact allowed but he is stead fast against it as he thinks it a nursing home

We did live together before. But it was before his retirement. He does my head in mentally. And I like my freedom. I had always hope to have partner, career etc but that just seems like an unachievable dream anyway. People say that I should put myself first. So if I put myself first I should just stay here and gamble that dad's current place works out in the end. If not, worry about it when it comes.

Thoughts...